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Sunday, March 19, 2006
hang in there people
heyhey.. hols nearly over and in less than 12 hours i will be skipping/dragging my feet through the gates of acjc with a smile/frown on my face. it will be the very first time ill be wearing the acjc uniform officially. sort of. wore it once before, for the chinese new year celebrations. doesnt seem so great to wear it now as it did then. watched my kakak pack away my mg uniform. ill never wear it again. well, officially at least. this time, my life as an mg girl is really over. they say once an mg girl, always an mg girl. yeah, true.. but from now on, im an alumni. jc life is great but, actually, supposed to be great, but.. so many buts huh.. kinda hard to put it all down. wish i had a whole lot of money then i could donate back to mg. always wondered why people would pay $500-$1000 for a seat at one of those gala dinners. maybe now i know the reason why. just for a chance to give back a small portion of what you have been given. and to relive those days.. be with old friends.. yes, those were the days.. okay, enough about me reminiscing.. i find that im often stuck in the past sometimes. yeah, finding it hard to catch up sometimes, but yeah, thats what i wasnt gonna talk about. i was kind of surfing around, and you know what, it makes me real sad. you know, all these young people out there, just like you and me, feeling so depressed (not sure if its the right word) and so alienated. come on, admit it, youve had your turn too. you feel that nobody can understand you, youre all alone, and that the whole world doesnt give a damn. either that, or the whole world is caught up in this whole big pretense of being happy and hiding their true feelings in the closet. hey, its okay.. i wouldnt say its normal.. its quickly becoming the norm, but its okay.. you dont have to hide.. yes, it hurts. i know it hurts, dammit. but we're all out here hurting with you. we care.. oh yeah.. so i care huh.. like i will ever understand.. but look carefully, man. just take a look around. everybody has their own hurts just like you and me. i was looking around peoples blogs and there was this big undercurrent of sadness.hurt.pain.fear.... if you need to cry, just cry. let it go. bottling it up and keeping it inside will just make it worse. i should know.. go to a close friend if need be, but most importantly, remember to love yourself..
dont know whats happening to the world these days.. hmm.. after much extensive research, i have narrowed it down to a select few reasons. 1) due to the indiscriminate pollution of the environment, harmful substances have now found their way into our bloodstream and are currently accumulating in the bodies of our generation. this results in a huge hormonal imbalance in the brain, triggering off these depressive streaks which are now part and parcel of every day teenage life. 2) we ourselves are to blame. we stress ourselves out. stress each other out. give everyone else a helluva time just to (hopefully) make it easier for ourselves. as long as i dont know the person, who really cares anyway? yep. so i guess society as a whole is at fault? everybody else is so caught up in the mad rush to do something, get somewhere, it really isnt that surprising that the numbers of suicide cases are on the up and up. the numbers of people with all these personality disorders, mental illnesses and whatnot are on the rise. if i were a psychologist, my wallet would be jumping for joy. oh let the poor souls screw themselves.. all the better for me! oh yeah. the next time youre stuck in a car jam, honk a little less.. if the service isnt all that great, scream a little softer (and with a lower pitch.. it does makes a difference) live life a little easier.. cant really speak for myself.. im in the process of improving too.. and of course.. never forget the curved line which sets things straight. smile... :)
9:51 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.
