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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
well hello, just wanted to say some things which have been bouncing around my head for awhile.. yup, first of which is, this is really turning out to be the year of the rainbows. believe me. about a week ago i was going out of the house, i saw this beautiful beautiful rainbow, the kind which you see in those disneyland movies. it was nearly perfect. i wont say perfect because i dont believe perfection is achievable on this earth, but close. it had all the colours, but was somewhat paler than the one i saw while walking to school in the morning. but what really made it look right out of a fairytale was that it began and ended in two pretty white clouds on either side, just like in the the cartoons. now that was what really took my breath away. so i guess its possible for rainbows to begin and end in clouds.. did you know in my old house at bukit batok there used to be this huge rainbow on the wall, apparently because i requested it. it kind of turned out much ghastlier than i expected, maybe partly because the background of the room was pink. but anyway, i felt bad about complaining because my parents had specially asked the painters to do the rainbow. oh wells, so maybe ive been mad about rainbows since i was young without realising it until now... yeah so i was reading fanfiction again. aahh, how addictive it is even though the plots and storylines after a while sounds a bit similar, albeit with a few twists here and there. here's a part which i really liked about harry being chosen to be a godfather: “I chose you,” she went on, “because when it really matters Harry, when things get really tuff and fucked up, you seem to be the only one who ever really comes through for everyone…in the end, it is the person you will one day be, that made me choose you.” aahh.. how sweet and touching. minus the bad spelling errors and use of the f-word. but still.. your eyes tune them out after a while. it was quite refreshing to revisit these old friends of mine again. ah, harry.. hehehe i still think he'd look quite cute if he were real, scar and all.. it is much easier to dream on in fantasy sometimes.. except that you kinda lose touch with the real world. but what is the real world anyway? how do you know we are not a really advanced computer simulation? how do you know that all you feel is real if you have never ever felt otherwise? hmm let me tell you a mini-story. the triangle and the square lived in a 2-D world, as if they were just pictures on a piece of paper. they only recognised each other by moving along each others edges and feeling each others' sides to know what 'shape' each other was. (i hope this isnt very hard to picture) then one day came along this sphere who of course was 3-D. and it was like, how on earth do you explain 3-D to somebody only knows moving along one plane for their whole life? imagine trying to explain what sound is to a deaf, or what sight is to the blind. its virtually impossible unless the sphere manages to lift the triangle and the square out of that plane and into 3-D existance. so i guess my point is that there isnt more to life than what we are experiencing now? how do we what we feel is real? okay, enough of asking questions which i dont know how many people would be interested in anyway.. ya by the way, the more i read that thing up there in red, the more it seems to me to be some thing taken out of a trashy romance novel.. ahahaha. but i still think it was nice in that context. :P ya anyway thats the thing about trashy romance novels.. you know that its trashy.. you know that its probably wasting your brain space just reading it.. you can predict the outcome.. but you still are stuck to it, wanting to find out what happens in the end, hoping for a sweet happy ending.. (and perhaps hoping that it could happen in your own life too harharhar) aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. back to school for me tomorrow.. no more slacking around and indulging in sleep (which by the way i have more than enough of) i would have written more, but the tv seems to be beckoning rather temptingly. oh wells, i guess you'll see me around some time soon..
6:56 pm
Friday, April 21, 2006
well hello, im out of school again today. hmph.. not a good day to miss though. i missed composition tutorial:( and mock spa for bio. blehs.. oh well, i really didnt feel like getting out of bed this morning. im currently reading what katy did by susan coolidge. its some childrens classic. lighthearted and refreshing, i must say. it definitely is a change from grownup stuff, just reading it brings you back to being a kid again. there was this poem in it, i thought you guys might wanna look at too. its called for the want of a nail by i have no idea who.
For the want of a nail the shoe was lost, For the want of a shoe the horse was lost, For the want of a horse the rider was lost, For the want of the rider the battle was lost, For the want of the battle the kingdom was lost, And all for the want of a horse-shoe nail.
hmm.. i guess it really speaks for itself huh. i think i need to strive for perfection in all that i do.. i really need this kind of reminders from time to time lest i forget and i slack off.. which i actually beginning to.. but i guess more importantly, every single thing that you do has an impact, may be big may be small, but an impact nonetheless. im resolving to remember to do all the small things right, and perhaps, later on in my life, i may just be able to get the chance to do one big thing right and really help change the lives of others.
5:25 pm
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
im at home!
yeah, the last post was super mood swingy.. sorry about that.. ya, and super self-pityingly depressive. but oh well.. yes, so today im at home.. didnt feel like going to school today harharhar...
2:04 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.