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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
smart ideas anyone?
today i finished reading 1984 by george orwell. and i highly recommend you read it too. its the kind of book you want to read and reread and rereread, and everytime you do so, theres some new little thing which pops out at you that youve never realised/imagined would be there. the future can be oh so terrible.. you have to read it and see for yourself.. but im left with a few questions that im sure cant be answered very easily/readily. 1) do the means justify the ends? 2) is it worth trying even if it is 100% certain that you will fail? yeah.. so oh wells, it kinda re-emphasized something that ive thinking about lately. i realised that the only person you can ever really count on is yourself. friends.. are very good, really. yeah and of course family too.. (and i guess you really have to count god in also..) but i guess when it comes down to the crunch its you and only you.. yeps, sad to say, in the end its every man (is it to or for?) his own..
"Do it to Julia! Do it to Julia! Not me! Julia! I don't care what you do to her. Tear her face off, strip her to the bones. Not me! Julia! Not me!"
"I betrayed you," she said baldly. "I betrayed you," he said. She gave him another quick look of dislike. "Sometimes," she said, "they threaten you with something--something you can't stand up to, can't even think about. And then you say. 'Don't do it to me, do it to somebody else, do it to so-and-so.' And perhaps you might pretend, afterwards, that it was only a trick and that you just said it to make them stop and didn't really mean it. But that isnt true. At the time when it happens you do mean it. You think there's no other way of saving yourself and you're quite ready to save yourself that way. You want it to happen to the other person. You don't give a damn what they suffer. All you careabout is yourself." "all you care about is yourself," he echoed. "And after that, you don't feel the same toward the other person any longer." "No," he said, "you don't feel the same." so you see, perhaps the book has left me kinda disillusioned or something, but the moral of the story (for now) is.. the only person whom you can really trust is none other than yourself. you cannot rely on others, because others will always fail you. you cannot expect them to be there. its a simple rule in life. they have theirs to get on with, and so you have to cope as best as you possibly can. yeah its sad, really... anyways. i cant believe the semesters drawing to a close so quickly. its like one-and-a-half more weeks and one whole quarter of my jc life will be over and done with. and i guess nothing really much to show for it huh. dont particularly feel very attached to the school, whether building or people.. hmmmz.. dont wanna live out the rest of my life as a drifter though.. smart ideas anyone..?
11:23 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.
