Bonjour. Si vous voulons me chercher, vous êtes venu au faux endroit.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
like omg.. what on earth.. hahahaha
now that has put me in a mad random test taking mood! oh wells, ive got wednesday and thursday free anyway.. lets just take it that im taking a good rest.. oh yeah bio was okay.. but the paper wasnt fun though.. not like how bios supposed to be..
hmms.. somehow i am amazingly horrendous at html or something or other thats preventing me from adding more stuff. haha i just did one.. if i were a horrible affliction i would be syphilis! aharhar...
5:21 pm
Monday, June 26, 2006
welcome to exam-land! whoo hoo! haha i tell you my sister can be my personal assistant man.. shes like helping me to manage my time, advising me on how to conserve time, whats more, shes helping me advertise myself (aka talking about me to my (ex)-juniors)! haha next time need an effective PA you know who to call.. :) oh wells gp and chinese today.. with a pinch of luck and a double dosage of god's grace, i will pass.. two down dunno-how-many-more to go..
10:54 pm
Sunday, June 25, 2006
i am in a foul mood today and if youre not careful ill bite off your head. rargh. school starts tomorrow. rargh. terms start tomorrow. rargh. i know i am gonna do badly. rargh. i am saving all the guilt and horribleness of everything the year has brought for when i receive confirmation of my pending bad results. aka, when the papers start coming back. okay, not that this year hasnt had happy and memorable moments.. but mg definitely brings more of them. a couple of days ago i did this test on personaldna.. and guess what they said about me.. i am like slightly functional.. like ahem.. excuse me, what is slightly functional? does it mean im mostly dysfunctional? a quick check on dictionary.com gives me this definition of functional which i thought was the most applicable of the lot: Capable of performing; operative: eg. a functional set of brakes. so you are saying that most of the time i am not capable of functioning, ie. performing? performing what anyway.. if youre saying simply being a human being, i more than qualify okay. i eat, shit, sleep.. and i guess the ultimate aim of any species is to reproduce, but fortunately/unfortunately i havent done that yet.. but i tell you, i am no less a human being than any of those guys who created the personality test okay.. cant they make their explanations a leeetle bit clearer.. sighs.. but of course if they mean the ability to function in todays society where there are so many unspoken codes of conduct and where normal and abnormal seem to have a definite meaning so frequently, i guess they may be rather correct after all.. its like hellooo... i can read you.. i can sorta see why youre thinking what youre thinking.. (hahaha or at least i think i do.. so humour me..) but i cant respond to it.. like shit how do i compose a facial expression that is suitably sympathetic even though i dont know you that well (and vice cersa) but i can sorta feel what youre feeling.. (yes, continue to humour me please) or maybe like how on earth do i look enthusiastic enough to be encouraging yet tell you that your brilliant idea wont go very far.. and at the same time still make you happy about it.. or like oh crappy crap why are there soo many people i dont know.. shitshitshit. what on earth am i doing here. helphelphelp. make me invisible somebody. what on earth am i supposed to say to this strangerfied person who's like talking to me.. and my facial muscles start like cramping up cos they arent too sure what my brain cells want them to do.. and so on.. you can imagine why meeting people i dont know or dont really know is like one of my least favourite sticky situations.. today it was like.. i didnt smile and so my tutor kinda thought i was either 1)super stressed due to terms 2)super sad for some unknown reason 3)super pissed at something or other but i wasnt. really. haha you gotta believe me. its just that its not funny lorh.. and even if theres nothing funny, do you expect me to be smiling while im doing of all subjects.. math?!? and the more he asked the more im like.. no theres totally nothing wrong with me.. and all the little kids were like staring staring.. staring staring.. okay fine year whatever.. i hate people observing me.. oh man but i love observing people. how stupidly hypocritical can i get.. and no i dont think im autistic.. i think its like a result of interacting with only a super small social circle which im comfortable with.. yeah im sorry i know i can be cliquish.. okay maybe i am most of the time.. rargh. you may find me unapproachable.. aiyah who cares lah.. if you find me unapproachable i probably find you strangerfied too.. so we're quits harharhar.. okay fine, i think im talking rubbish.. i shall be kind and spare you the agony.. :)
9:09 pm
Friday, June 23, 2006
hey guess what. what? i got my pay today.. and even though i havent laughed all the way to the bank yet, the feeling of satisfaction is still there.. *grins* but i tell you, i so am not working as a shopkeeper next time. stocktaking is an absolute chore, i tell you. it is so tedious and so __________ (fill in your own desired adjective) that i could have fallen asleep there and then.. but seeing as it was my last day there, i thought id better leave them with a nice sweet memory of me. haha i hope i did at least.. and so, there holidays draw to a close.. and the dreaded T-word looms darkly ahead. oh no. keep your mouth shut. you musnt speak it out loud.. the consequences are dangerous.. when in desperate need to refer to it, simply call it it-which-must-not-be-named. ah there. yes it sounds rather nice and familiar doesnt it.. my dad's back from vietnam and with him came a whole lot of lychees. there are so many, it really has to be lychee season or something down there.. either that, or its a DNA experiment gone wrong, with all the trees bearing fruit like crazy.. anyways, this lychee is abnormal i tell you.. the seed is so small its making me super happy and addicted to it. i wonder why.. maybe its because of the aforementioned experiment-gone-wrong. but its nice. its not the sweetness or the juiciness that makes the lychees so irresistable, although i admit yes, the lychees are juicy.. i dunno what it is they put as their fertiliser man.. i cant stop eating! oh speaking of growing fruits and whatnot, did i tell you.. did i tell you? what childhood dream i used to have? okay most obviously not.. haha i tell you now lah.. when i grow up and make alot alot alot of money, then ill go and buy a huge huge huge plot of land in the middle of nowhere and miles from anywhere.. then ill stay there with a few like-minded people who dont really like being with that many people anyway.. and do everything DIY. yup, farming, building, cooking, rearing animals and that kinda stuff lah.. whatever you can think of.. that would be awesome.. but now that we've all "grown up" or at least are on our way to being "grown up", it all seems too much like a fairytale now.. i mean, by the time im earning alot alot alot of money, id probably be too caught up in the rat race to even think about this childhood dream of mine.. and even if i remembered, id probably have too many commitments to leave it all behind.. oh and besides.. huge huge huge plots of land in the middle of nowhere and miles from anywhere are kind of getting less and less common nowadays.. oh well..
11:55 pm
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
the race has begun! or rather had begun long ago but i kinda just realised.. now counting down to our first battle in the two-year war. or more fondly known in the acronym-friendly land of singapore, as TYW. not familiar to you? i thought so.. perhaps occupying a much larger part of all of our brains is the TYS. meh, i seem to have a love-hate relationship with it.. but anyways, press on, soldiers! *trumpet calls* let us fight this battles and all other battles in good faith and with a peserverance that never fails.. the best is yet to be!
hahaha.. how was that.. simply couldnt resist it.. i tell you i am seriously dying man.. idealistic life and realistic life are simply too different.. somebody save me for terms.. i wanna pass man.. i didnt come to jc to fail everything.. but then.. even if i start studying 10 hours a day from now.. i think i still cant make it.. what say you.. yeah, anyways, whoever/whatever you are, wherever you are, all the best.. hope you do better than me..
watching the last episode of da chang jin. its rather lacklustre, really.. i hate last episodes.. after all the anticipation and build up.. maybe its better to imagine the ending..
10:20 pm
Saturday, June 17, 2006
walking down the street i decided i wanted to meet you. meet you..? meet who? who are you? yooooohoooooooooooo. what are you? answer me, are your lips stuck with super glue?
watched beautiful boxer last night. didnt realise it was based on a true story until the end.. but at least it had a "happy" ending in the end. now everybodys happy. well, i guess. okay more of i hope. (now my mums grumbling i woke her up with my laughter.. so thats one unhappy person i guess..) but anyways, i was torn between sympathizing and cringing throughout the whole thing.. if i were stuck in the same situation i think id just swallow the bitter pill and live in regret for the rest of my life or something.. but. i am not. so thinking is no use. how do you know what you were born to be anyway? what if im not supposed to be a man, or a woman, but a worm...
doctor can i have a species change please? :)
11:40 pm
Friday, June 16, 2006
a hey and a ho, and a big hello! okay, my sister is so pissing. its like since i am staying in the same house as her, she can treat me as a ill-tell-you-as-and-when-i-want-a-lesson piano teacher.. and no, it doesnt help that i know that i can teach better than her lousy teacher can.. *pouts* oh wells, harhar yesterday i went to teach my cousin maria.. its supposed to be like some music appreciation thingy.. or like introduction to music? ... and shes four plus.. over at playhouse music school, they call it music and movement. and i was like super unprepared due to some rather wishy-washy decision making which took like forever.. okay, yesyes i should have done something in advance.. so i went there, armed with a couple of cds and hoped for the best.. harharhar. it turned out okay.. she is super cute.. and can go a bit crazy when over excited.. we started "eating" everything.. literally. cos we were pretending to be in the land of the sugar plum fairy (tchaikovshy's nutcracker) but i have a feeling that it was because of my story rather than the music.. harhar oh wells, little kids can be so cute.. yesterday we all trooped down to where else.. but victoria concert hall for muse, the ac band concert. i must say, i enjoyed it better than the first one.. its like band music is just this huge mass of sound, where everybody's sole purpose is to drown out everybody else.. with some tender bits thrown in here and there.. its like if i strain my ears a little, i can sort of hear the xylophone thingies tinkling away.. and if i strain my ears a bit more, i can sort of hear the clarinets playing something under everything else.. i think i need a few more doses before i can fully enjoy it.. oh but i loved a movement for rosa.. it gave me a very inspired feeling.. sounds like it can fit right into one of those i-am-trying-to-tell-you-a-message-be-inspired movies that im such a sucker for.. harhar oh wells, the mass of sound did come in handy afterall.. and running around backstage like weird idiots with nothing better to do was quite fun.. just like the old days, doing crazy things for kicks.. okay not for kicks.. there always is a reason, but if you look at it from a grown up point of view, the reason is not valid.. so yeah..
I wanna run through the halls of my high school I wanna scream at the Top of my lungs John Mayer
my rabbit is so super cute i tell you.. rachel took a pic of it eating up our ferns but i dunno how to put it online.. so yeah.. its like since its arrival, the total amount of vegetation in our balcony has gone down by 50%. but we cant possibly keep it in the cage like forever right? some animals rights activist will try to sue us one day or something.. imagine, if we were not the dominant species on earth, and were classified as just animals.. because they think we cant think.. and they think theyre the only ones who can think.. and since we humans cant resist anyway (since we cant think) so who cares.. life would really suck. i mean, hey, what if now all the animals were staging a rebellion against us without us knowing.. like what if they can enter the fourth dimension already and not us.. and so we are the stupid ones now.. harharhar. our day of reckoning is near..
9:43 am
Sunday, June 11, 2006
whooooooooooOOOOO! meh, im in a good mood.. and if youre smart enough, and if you read this in time, youll probably be gonna ask me for that favour youve been waiting to ask like asap.. but oh wells, that doesnt spoil my happy mood. let me tell you what i just ate for dinner. chilli crab! oh my gosh.. im so full now, ill probably fall down if you asked me to walk around. i tell you its deliciousness wasnt in the crab itself, but in the sauce.. i tell you, i could just eat the sauce and rice alone.. thats how good it was.. only thing it wasnt spicy.. which kinda defeats its name chilli crab..
MARIA I feel pretty, Oh, so pretty, I feel pretty and witty and bright! And I pity Any girl who isn't me tonight.
thats from west side story.. and thats how i feel now.. harharhar actually, no. change all the 'pretty's to 'happy' first.. i hardly feel very pretty.. in my present state, i dont think ill be able to wear anything that isnt stretchable... heee..
yeah, but the only thing thats threatening to spoil my mood is that i dont understand why people have to try so hard to fit in. actually, yes i can understand why.. i have been in that place where i want to simply belong.. but it is rather saddening.. the world doesnt have to be this way, does it..
i just wish that the whole world could see that the joy is in being and knowing yourself and not in melding into who you want to be..
The Road Not Taken Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost
thats a really nice poem.. and i am really sure it applies to each and every one of us.. it just depends on your outlook on life.. but for those who dont like poems, here's avril lavigne's Complicated.. but a bit edited.. the whole things too long..
Chill out whatcha yellin' for? Lay back it's all been done before And if you could only let it beyou would see I like you the way you are When we're drivin' in your car and you're talking to me one on one but you've become
Somebody else 'round everyone else You're watching your back like you can't relax You're trying to be cool you look like a fool to me Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else Gets me frustrated Life's like this, you you fall and you crawl and you break And you take what you get and you turn it into Honestly, promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it, no, no, no
You know you're not foolin' anyone When you become Somebody else 'round everyone else Watchin' your back like you can't relax Tryin' to be cool, you look like a fool to me
10:04 pm
Monday, June 05, 2006
woots! harlow.. why is it that i feel like slacking my life away when i know that obviously its not what i should be doing? i feel so full now.. i tell you, you really get the royal treatment when you go to qiyis house.. theres seemingly no end to all the stuff you can eat there.. come come, anybody want to raid her house.. you tell me then we can secretly go and plan together..! speaking of food, last friday i had a really really good dinner at ritz-carlton.. did i spell it correctly? harhar cant even spell.. but oh wells.. as i was saying, the food there is really really good. and the thing is, you can practically feel the word expensive simply oozing out of every bite.. mmhm.. ya i was there for my father's company's D&D. actually im not supposed to be there one.. and actually i also didnt really feel like going.. but i felt bad saying no.. so there i was. i tell you, you better buy more F&N products.. like daisy hi-low, like magnolia ice cream, or like fruit tree fresh juice.. alternatively, you can also buy your property from their property arm, and buy all your books from times bookstore.. this way, happy people like me can continue going for this kind of nice dinners.. okay? :) just joking lah.. tell you ah, i didnt know these middle-aged working adults can be so crazy. they had this best dressed competition halfway through the show, and i tell you, these people whom if i meet on the street i would classify as "auntie" and "uncle", can fit right into a scene of eager fans on the set of singapore idol. one group of supporters had made posters and were eagerly waving them about. not to be outdone, the next group were jumping up and down on the chairs! luckily they werent sitting in front.. later they block the VIPs' view.. i could not believe it.. wah, you mean these working adults so on about this kind of thing one ah.. even i am not so crazy.. its amazing, really.. in the day time these are all big-money earning people and here they are jumping up and down and blowing their whistles like crazed teenaged fans? oh my. yeah.. but at my table they were quite sane.. relatively, at least.. sitting next to me was this friend of my dad's who is the head of R&D.. when i heard that i was like omg omg.. that is so cool! and my mother being my mother went to thick-skinnedly ask if i could like do some holiday internship there.. AND SHE SAID YES! i was like wow.. and my dad had this i-dont-like-the-sound-of-this look on his face even though he didnt say it.. oh man, but i want i want! so fun.. but the thing is, they usually take in nus interns like once a year.. look at them and look at me.. i surely will go and contaminate all their lab tests and break all their glassware or something.. plus i dont know anything about food technology.. :S but it still would be cool though.. *grins* sitting nearly opposite me looked like a cross between miss trunchbull and miss kon. i didnt know whether to laugh or to cry.. but dont play play okay.. she also GM one leh.. but at the end she shook my hand really warmly and smiled really nicely at me.. so i guess beneath that stern/prim-and-proper persona is a nice person. i tell you ah, the lucky draw prizes are very good one lorh.. for the first draw the first prize is *drumroll* $3000 shopping voucher! i nearly died okay.. there were two more draws but then we left already.. it ended at supposedly 1+AM.. i went home feeling wah.. how come this company so nice one.. they invited every single person.. down to even the cleaners and van salesmen.. so half the time i felt like i was underdressed and the other half i felt i was overdressed.. hmm.. i also want to work for them.. but look at them and look at me.. just my table alone the people were all super-achievers.. i am super cannot make it lorh.. tomorrow morning im going for math tuition.. did i tell you im having math tuition again? no? okay.. im having maths tuition again! still got so much work to do.. and i tell you ah.. that jason ah.. the first time i went there he said.. so youre enjoying jc life is it? you put on weight leh.. *stares in horror* i really dont know to laugh or to cry..
9:47 pm
woots! harlow.. why is it that i feel like slacking my life away when i know that obviously its not what i should be doing? i feel so full now.. i tell you, you really get the royal treatment when you go to qiyis house.. theres seemingly no end to all the stuff you can eat there.. come come, anybody want to raid her house.. you tell me then we can secretly go and plan together..! speaking of food, last friday i had a really really good dinner at ritz-carlton.. did i spell it correctly? harhar cant even spell.. but oh wells.. as i was saying, the food there is really really good. and the thing is, you can practically feel the word expensive simply oozing out of every bite.. mmhm.. ya i was there for my father's company's D&D. actually im not supposed to be there one.. and actually i also didnt really feel like going.. but i felt bad saying no.. so there i was. i tell you, you better buy more F&N products.. like daisy hi-low, like magnolia ice cream, or like fruit tree fresh juice.. alternatively, you can also buy your property from their property arm, and buy all your books from times bookstore.. this way, happy people like me can continue going for this kind of nice dinners.. okay? :) just joking lah.. tell you ah, i didnt know these middle-aged working adults can be so crazy. they had this best dressed competition halfway through the show, and i tell you, these people whom if i meet on the street i would classify as "auntie" and "uncle", can fit right into a scene of eager fans on the set of singapore idol. one group of supporters had made posters and were eagerly waving them about. not to be outdone, the next group were jumping up and down on the chairs! luckily they werent sitting in front.. later they block the VIPs' view.. i could not believe it.. wah, you mean these working adults so on about this kind of thing one ah.. even i am not so crazy.. its amazing, really.. in the day time these are all big-money earning people and here they are jumping up and down and blowing their whistles like crazed teenaged fans? oh my. yeah.. but at my table they were quite sane.. relatively, at least.. sitting next to me was this friend of my dad's who is the head of R&D.. when i heard that i was like omg omg.. that is so cool! and my mother being my mother went to thick-skinnedly ask if i could like do some holiday internship there.. AND SHE SAID YES! i was like wow.. and my dad had this i-dont-like-the-sound-of-this look on his face even though he didnt say it.. oh man, but i want i want! so fun.. but the thing is, they usually take in nus interns like once a year.. look at them and look at me.. i surely will go and contaminate all their lab tests and break all their glassware or something.. plus i dont know anything about food technology.. :S but it still would be cool though.. *grins* sitting nearly opposite me looked like a cross between miss trunchbull and miss kon. i didnt know whether to laugh or to cry.. but dont play play okay.. she also GM one leh.. but at the end she shook my hand really warmly and smiled really nicely at me.. so i guess beneath that stern/prim-and-proper persona is a nice person. i tell you ah, the lucky draw prizes are very good one lorh.. for the first draw the first prize is *drumroll* $3000 shopping voucher! i nearly died okay.. there were two more draws but then we left already.. it ended at supposedly 1+AM.. i went home feeling wah.. how come this company so nice one.. they invited every single person.. down to even the cleaners and van salesmen.. so half the time i felt like i was underdressed and the other half i felt i was overdressed.. hmm.. i also want to work for them.. but look at them and look at me.. just my table alone the people were all super-achievers.. i am super cannot make it lorh.. tomorrow morning im going for math tuition.. did i tell you im having math tuition again? no? okay.. im having maths tuition again! still got so much work to do.. and i tell you ah.. that jason ah.. the first time i went there he said.. so youre enjoying jc life is it? you put on weight leh.. *stares in horror* i really dont know to laugh or to cry..
9:47 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.