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Friday, August 25, 2006
yar the last post was rather incomplete cos i got distracted.. then i fell asleep.. the ending of it would have went something along the lines of: i will work harder. yeah. whort and sweet. why on earth did pluto get erased from the list of planets in our galaxy? or should i say, why in our galaxy did pluto get demoted from a planet? actually i could actually google it or someting.. but im just too lazy. so there. :/ and jessie heres yours! haha special request. jessies a really good friend.. feels like ive known her for ages.. wait a minute, i have known her for ages.. yup, ive learnt that small acts of thoughtfulness can and will go a long way.. i know lately life hasnt been all that great.. i cant say that i can understand everything youre going through.. but i can say that it can and will get better.. life really sucks sometimes, but hang in there okay? soon it will all be over..
this is what i go to school for. i dont mind being a geek or not having a life for the rest of my life, just so that i can have days like today, every day..
11:20 pm
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
so. after todays tongue lashing thing, i asked myself what am i doing this for? what have i gained from it? how much of myself have i given.. is it actually what i would have expected of myself? the first one.. the main reason why i wanted to join mep was that i knew that im not good enough to do music professionally and so this was probably the only was i could experience music on a deeper level.. i mean come on face it lah, from thumping around on my piano since i was a little kid, to taking music in secondary school, i never really bothered too much about it.. okay hang on, i never bother too much about anything actually, i cant remember a time when i put in my 100% into something.. let alone 90%. but i digress.. as i was saying.. a part of me really really couldnt bear to not learn about music anymore. life wouldnt be life, i guess.. its just an intrinsic part of you.. (yesyes i know i know, if its so essential, then why am i still so bo chap.. but ill get to that later..) the taking and giving part.. alot. alot alot alot. dunno.. somehow i find it hard to put it into words what we .. or i at least, have learnt in these 8/9 months here under the two of them.. and not just about music too.. haha, about being ACCOUNTABLE. seems to be one of their favourite words.. ive learnt so much i dunno what to say heh. although all it has done is to make me realise theres a thousand times more out there waiting to be discovered.. and of course, ive gained friends! yes, i guess life wouldnt be life without interactions with other isnt it.. (even though i do prefer to be a loner sometimes.. still..) so they all deserve an honourable mention :) merilyn... ive come to realise that people like those in the storybooks who work really hard and believe that if they try hard enough theyll succeed.. and they really do try.. do exist in the world.. theres one sitting right in front of me... jacqueline... ive learnt to be.. myself... meiling... i thought i knew the definition of nice.. until i met meiling.. and then i realised that i didnt really know after all.. maryanne.. random random random.. ra n do mr and o mra d o m. yeah. andrew... now, i tell myself not to be stressed.. not that i am stressed... really.. i mean look at me.. hahas... yingda... ive come to realise the importance of never judging a book by its cover and that people all have layers.. its just whether you bother to actually
11:40 pm
Monday, August 21, 2006
acherly hor, i velly tired wan leh. budden still got this thing called the EOM that i bedder do or else i kana from my 'cher and all my gloop mates 2mollo. so now i sit in front of my computer, wah, eye so tired, but still must tahan. cannot sleep. later 2mollo mati ah...
10:19 pm
Sunday, August 20, 2006
well well well, here i am again alive and kicking, safe and sound.. (mentally too, i hope) you know, i read that singapores hawker fare is not really as good as its famed to be.. and i must say, im getting quite sick of food in ac. i realised that under the guise of a plate/bowl of hot warm food, the canteen aunties and uncles give us the not-very-palatable food that somehow or other school food seems to have a reputation for. i mean, it does taste rather okay when its warm.. but of late ive been eating like later, so nonono. no good no good. but not alls bad lah.. right now, im kind of hooked onto the doughnuts! im NUTS over doughNUTS! oh wells, oops, couldnt resist that.. its just that my mouth feels like it hasnt used up its alloted share of talking quota for the day, and so my hands must do my talking for me. that does sound rather familiar right, the quota thing. kinda reminds me of orwells 1984 and robert rankins Armeggedon: the Musical. and oh yes, speaking of robert rankin, im like a big robert rankin fan right now, even though i hardly have the time/energy (you choose) to finish a book.. he is (sofar) the wackiest author ive read, and he never fails to make me laugh laugh laugh.. i know i know, youre like.. robert WHO? robert jordan i know, robbie williams i know.. but robert rankin? oh wells, go read go read. im sure youll have a ball of a time.. okay, maybe not the first time reading, but hes addictive man.. in the words of one reviewer.. everyone should read rankin at least once in a lifetime.. (or something like that) i guess the big looming word over everyones head, or my head at least, is the big P-R-O-M-O-S. which leads to the s-word. S-T-U-D-Y. which makes me wanna D-I-E. having to study for a real reason simply takes the fun out of studying.. sure, we did have some sort of fun plying through the tons of tys for the good ole' o's.. but it just that it takes all the fun outta studying.. or well, finding out about stuff, at least.. okay well, i admit im a lazy pig and without regular assessments like tests and exams i would probably a even huger slacker and never learn anything much, but still... :( rargh. i guess it is a necessary evil, huh. anyways. what i really wanted to say was, ive finally decided on a name for my new bag, well, not-so-new bag. from this day on, Hi-Ke will be pronounced as High Key. i was kinda fishing around for a name for him/her when my dad unwittingly christened him/her for me. and since it was my dad, i decided to just stick with it.. it does sound rather nice right? i mean.. right? anyways, what i need help with is, should him/her/it be a him, her or it? (according to highly reliable research done on my not-so-new nokia phone and the acjc lifts, things are more willing to be helpful when called the appropriate gender, be it he, she, it or a mixture of the above) yup, so could i please have some suggestions as to my bag is exactly? :)
9:49 pm
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
rargh. recently listening to classical music has made me feel like switching the radio off.. its like: why on earth are they feeling so gay and so merry? and why do they have to be so refined.. and so... typical... raghraghragh. why do i not enjoy playing it like i should. rarghrarghrarghrarghrargh. maybe ive been listening too much to what satie says..
10:08 pm
Sunday, August 13, 2006
the other day i was at kap and i saw a really nice sight. by nice, i mean, i had too many advectives but none fit the bill perfectly so you can go back and fill in the word of your choice once youre done reading the whole thing. well, if you can be bothered, that is. at the table next to me was this family. while the mother and one kid went to get the food, the dad and the other kid were sitting at the table waiting.. and playing those really pointless but somehow amusing (at that time) games we used to play in primary school. and what really amazed me was that the father was really enjoying himself too.. and when i say that i mean, getting really excited about it too.. it made me wonder if those magical moments, where parent and child do stuff together, no matter how useless, simply because they enjoy each others company, only last while youre small.. what happens then..? its such a gradual growing apart that i didnt even realise it.. it until it was "too late" anyways.. i mean, picture me playing see see my baby or talking about the latest movie i watched with my mum? i definite nono. okay okay, but its not all that bad.. at least we still talk.. :) haha maybe i set my benchmark too low then.. oh wells..
im filled with the shades of yesterday while living in the colours of tomorrow. *earth to gail* when will i come back down to earth?
10:52 pm
Monday, August 07, 2006
ms goh
you know, i really really did mean to give that bottle of brands essence chicken to her.. before she you know, passed on.. and i guess now its too late. you know, i always knew it was really hard for her, but i always thought shed somehow manage to hang on just that little bit more, so that the next time i went back to mg. the next time somehow became the next next time.. and the next next time evolved into the next next next time.. and now i guess its too late. ms goh, thanks for being such a nice teacher.. underneath that scary persona of one who strikes fear into nearly every student who knows who she is, is actually this person who just wants her students to do well and perhaps be better people? even at the expense of being seen as unapproachable and overbearing.. i remember the times when i somehow managed to fall asleep in her class, even while fearing for my life.. it was a rather stupid thing to do now that i think of it.. and oh yeah there was this time where i was being such a dumb dumb, cos our class was so unresponsive she had to start going down the row asking questions.. and i, having not paid very much attention, didnt have very much at all inside my head. so when my turn came, the question was: what bonds do metal bonds have? and after a super long excruciating pause.................. i said i didnt know.. guess what the answer was: metallic bonds. i mean like.. metals have metallic bonds! it sounds so duh.. oh wells, i guess we all know now (at least those doing chem now) that bonds arent as easy as they seemed back then.. weve got all sorts of weird stuff now.. anyways.. i do wish i had been a better student.. perhaps i could have spared her some stress and headache and maybe.. just maybe.. she would have lived a little longer.. and i could have given her that bottle of brands essence of chicken that i always wanted to...
9:58 pm
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
omg people, you so super have to meet my new plaything! *drumroll* the erhu! i tell you, its one cool instrument okay.. i would have taken a cute pic of it and tried to upload it, but i kinda broke one string (already) so i didnt think that was so good an idea.. its so amazing i tell you.. that small teeny weeny soundbox thingy, can produce sounds comparable to that of a violin. and the tone colours really beautiful.. i tell you one day im gonna master this thing and play something so sad youre all gonna cry..
:)
10:21 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.