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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
so. after todays tongue lashing thing, i asked myself what am i doing this for? what have i gained from it? how much of myself have i given.. is it actually what i would have expected of myself? the first one.. the main reason why i wanted to join mep was that i knew that im not good enough to do music professionally and so this was probably the only was i could experience music on a deeper level.. i mean come on face it lah, from thumping around on my piano since i was a little kid, to taking music in secondary school, i never really bothered too much about it.. okay hang on, i never bother too much about anything actually, i cant remember a time when i put in my 100% into something.. let alone 90%. but i digress.. as i was saying.. a part of me really really couldnt bear to not learn about music anymore. life wouldnt be life, i guess.. its just an intrinsic part of you.. (yesyes i know i know, if its so essential, then why am i still so bo chap.. but ill get to that later..) the taking and giving part.. alot. alot alot alot. dunno.. somehow i find it hard to put it into words what we .. or i at least, have learnt in these 8/9 months here under the two of them.. and not just about music too.. haha, about being ACCOUNTABLE. seems to be one of their favourite words.. ive learnt so much i dunno what to say heh. although all it has done is to make me realise theres a thousand times more out there waiting to be discovered.. and of course, ive gained friends! yes, i guess life wouldnt be life without interactions with other isnt it.. (even though i do prefer to be a loner sometimes.. still..) so they all deserve an honourable mention :) merilyn... ive come to realise that people like those in the storybooks who work really hard and believe that if they try hard enough theyll succeed.. and they really do try.. do exist in the world.. theres one sitting right in front of me... jacqueline... ive learnt to be.. myself... meiling... i thought i knew the definition of nice.. until i met meiling.. and then i realised that i didnt really know after all.. maryanne.. random random random.. ra n do mr and o mra d o m. yeah. andrew... now, i tell myself not to be stressed.. not that i am stressed... really.. i mean look at me.. hahas... yingda... ive come to realise the importance of never judging a book by its cover and that people all have layers.. its just whether you bother to actually
11:40 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.
