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Friday, September 29, 2006
exams oh exams, why art thou plaguing me.. in my waking hours, oh how you taunt me.. with every tick of the clock, the counting down to my doom i hear.. in my resting hours, no rest i get.. oh how you haunt my dreams, instilling in me such fear..
oh harharhar a really weird thought just occurred to me.. but i better not say later people call me a sicko..
11:36 pm
well well well, in about eight hours time we will all be sitting for our first paper of the promos.. well, strike off the "all".. i forgot about the ki people for a while.. hmm, and anyway, i think im starting to feel scared.. yup, kinda a bit late to do anything much about it.. but i need this added fear to get myself to do anything.. its like i get a kick out of cheonging when its so super last minute and somehow managing to scrape through.. urm like now. now, when other saner people are either 1) doing something to improve their chances at the general paper tomorrow, or 2) sleeping, here i am letting my fingers have a bit of exercise.. oh wells wells.. i guess thats the reason why i have not and probably never will achieve my full potential.. in other words, you could call me L-A-Z-Y.. when they tell me that i feel like telling them: well, ravel was lazy too what.. he still managed to get his name down in history.. so worried for what.. but i guess adults are adults and adults seem to be right more often than wrong.. yupp.. im not as talented as him.. so i guess i shall have to be one of the lao bai xing..
12:00 am
Monday, September 25, 2006
recently it has come to my attention that there are several more experienced watchers than me.. and by watchers i mean people watchers. have i told you why i prefer buses to mrts? i dont think so heh.. i like buses cos i can stare out of the window.. theres the option of 1) staring openly at the people on the bus 2) staring at the people on the bus through the windows.. yesyes the powers of total internal reflection 3) staring at random stuff/people outside of the bus. number one isnt very good cos its kinda rude.. and after a while they start staring back at you like youre a weirdo.. number two is kinda convenient, unless i encounter some really observant people.. hmm so buses are good in that you can combine all three and hopefully will notice youre watching them.. mrts are watching-unfriendly in that you dont really have anywhere to look. you look up you see people. you look in the window, there are people looking back at you.. especially when the train in underground.. makes for a boring ride.. unless i pretend to be engrossed in something and secretly sneak glances at the people around me lah.. harharhar.. anywas. as i was saying.. yes.. there are more experienced watchers than me.. somehow they can watch people really without seeming to at all.. i guess i have much to learn.. you know, its like you watching an ant or something.. imagine the ant trying to watch you back.. its kinda retarded right.. whether the ant likes it or not, youre watching the ant.. and no matter how hard it tries it will be the "watched" and not the watcher.. okay anyway. where was i. hmm.. yeah sometimes i cant help but think.. could you please not try to psychoanalyze (did i spell it right?) me? everything you see is what i choose to show you.. okay maybe not all.. even the person whos best at it cant hide everything.. ameteur-ish attempts i dont mind.. but those who have been doing it for years.. it makes me uncomfortable knowing that theres someone watching me back.. oh wells.. rargh. well on the other hand, there are some who totally cannot read people at all.. i wonder how i manage to put up with it.. *shakes head*
12:36 am
Monday, September 18, 2006
i need.. okay maybe its not really a need, but more of a want.. but need sounds much more urgent and reasonable than a want, so.. a need then.. i need... 1) a life.. okay what with promos round the corner, who can afford to have a life.. well, but still.. 2) to learn the art of doublethink.. then maybe studying will go down better with my brain.. 3) a time machine, plus a manual that i can understand.. this is so that i can rewind time to one month ago.. no make that to before terms.. actually, i think i change my mind.. make that to the start of the year.. i know i know, i say that around this time every year, but this year more than most.. actually, i think i dont need to go back in time. i just need to stop it. then itll just be me me me, and myself.. more me.. and my music.. *hears the heavenly notes tinkling in the background* then we could all float in the mind-space together.. enjoying each others company for the moment (haha!).. [cue for more tinkling music] and we could all go exploring in the curious world of the mind-space have such a ball of a time.. yup, if anybody wishes to help me fulfill my needs/wants, id be more then happy to oblige..
ps. please pardon my egocentric string of me's up there..
10:28 pm
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Watch highly intelligent dolphins do stupid human tricks. Millions of years of evolution have given the pink dolphins a complex language and social structure. But is that good enough at the box-office these days? No way. They need some new tricks. And the only way they will learn those tricks is if you shut them up and starve them. A hungry dolphin will do just anything for a piece of fish. It will learn to jump through a hoop and ballance a ball. It will do somersaults. It will beg and wave. It will kiss a tourist. Of course, it will also get a gastric ulcer. But nobody said you can make it in showbiz without making a few sacrifices.
and once again im faced by my incompetencies.. and i feel... annoyed..? nono i just cringe..
9:57 am
Friday, September 08, 2006
hmm. recently ive decided to get in touch with my "inner child" again. :) harharhar. yup, it started with artemis fowl. how i wish i had his brains man.. oh wells anyways.. no point wishing for what wont come true right? i tell you ah.. my reading skills are so terrible now.. i teeny weeny childrens book with huge huge words, i took like super long to read.. see lah, what has school done to me.. *sobs* now i dont even dream of meeting them when i sleep anymore.. oh well... anyways, it seems to me that i have rekindled my love for.. *drumroll* neopets! harharharharhar. yupyup, the one and only. those were the days man, rachel and i, hunched over the computer screen, busy trying to earn more neopoints.. doing a brisk trade in goodness knows what.. "monitering market trends" and the like.. and yeah, a couple of years back i could have told you what items were profitable and how to best haggle with the shopkeepers for the best possible prices.. heh, now the neopets people have gotten smarter. theyll chase you outta the shop if you haggle too much.. oh yeah they added some new islands and stuff too, pretty cool i guess.. anyways, thanks to neopets we indulged ourselves in well, crazy stuff.. since im on the topic, i might as well dedicate this post to rachel wang since, from the far recesses of my brain, a reminder is telling me that i once promised her one.. and ta da here it is..! one whole post about you okay.. well sort of about you anyways...
12:11 am
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
my dear children, if you wish to starve yourselves and perhaps die younger in the hopes of looking "better", by all means go ahead. just dont try to make yourselves feel better by watching others eat.. or rather, making others eat so that you can watch them eat. i know i am in the wrong.. i love to eat, or rather i love to eat a lot... and so that makes me a prime target for food dumping.. you know, i normally wouldnt mind.. just smile and eat.. i mean, think of all the poor dying starving children in africa and goodness-knows-where, how could you waste food?!? but dont you think that me, being of the same species (homo sapien) as you, i too have a finite amount of space in my stomach? but seeing as the people at home, or at least the food provider at home, have decided to jump on the "oh lets starve ourselves" bandwagon as well, i really must urge you to eat your own food.. its not very nice you know.. if you all die of starvation, while i die of a bloated stomach.. then whos gonna attend our funerals? :(
5:58 pm
Sunday, September 03, 2006
today feels like a good day :)
haha dunno why.. just feels like it..
9:49 am
Friday, September 01, 2006
wishes
wish i could wear the mg uniform every day. wish i could still see you guys every day. wish we could still mug together. but theyre just wishes.. and what does life care about our wishes.....
2:57 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.