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Monday, January 15, 2007
omg i feel like such a loser. i mean seriously. i cant even get ready for school the next day.. i am so behind just thinking about what i need to do first is taking me forever.. i can only find one math tutorial.. one pathetic little tutorial which might or might not already been gone through.. and the rest is i have no idea where.. i assumed for the whole hols that i would be dropping math not chem, but now its like the other way round.. i have this loads and loads of chem stuff but the math stuff from school seems to be playing hide-and-seek with me or something.. not funny.. you better come out now.. you know right, i did this personality dna thingy uber-long ago and the only thing i remember from it is that it said that i am slightly functional.. and im afraid im starting to think it may be right after all.. im just sitting here trying to decide which is more important and how i should go about doing it all and i just cant find a good place to start.. oh gosh.. you know how sometimes we have to rush our compo techniques, actually not we, its more like how i have to rush the compo techniques the night before.. and its like i can spend ages and ages just thinking and planning how the thing should go.. but the actual writing it down is like close to non-existent cos it just sounds so different from what i wanted and i dunno how to make it sound right.. :/ go figure.. and i dont like being late okay.. do you actually think i like going to dc? oh some people sure do.. they swagger into the library wearing their detention like a badge of honour, and basically thinking i dunno, theyre very cool or something.. talking excitedly, clustered in their small little cliques, pretending for nobody in particular that they get hauled in there every other day.. but its not them facing the three grey walls every other day.. its not them getting their face and name matched together by khaw sor lin (dunno how to spell but then i guess we all know who).. anonymity anonymity! whatever happened to anonymity?! and all i wanted was to stay invisible.. im sorry im in such a whiny mood today.. im just so tired and i wanna sleep but i know if i go and sleep ill feel really terrible for even showing up in school cos i wont be prepared.. thats the problem.. i place too much importance on ideals, and when things fall short, even by a little bit its kinda tantamount to not going for perfection at all.. and uhh so lots of things get shoved to the cannot make it (cmi) category.. i dunno, its kinda wrong right, thinking that its kinda better (and most definitely easier) to not try at all than to try and not to reach it.. urgh oh wells.. i can think of a million reasons why i shouldnt go to school tomorrow.. but then again, there are probably two million reasons why i should go to school tomorrow.. :(
11:26 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.
