Saturday, February 17, 2007

hmm. this week has been a good week.. no. correction.. this week feels like a good week even though the events werent exactly what i would call good..
okay now after stoning for a while and thinking about alot of other stuff i kinda forgot where i was..
a-ny-ways.. it feels good to meet up with long-long friends.. you know how like sometimes you see people you used to know, or used to see every day, but then now its like youre so different cos somehow we all went our separate ways, whether by choice or because of circumstance.. and when i see these people, it just makes me really glad, like oh. my. gosh. it YOU! kinda thing.. even though we didnt really know each other all that well.. its just that its really really good to see them again.. then after the initial seconds of highly energetic greetings the pauses stretch into somewhat uncomfortable silences cos you have this impression of each other and you somewhat like the old memories that remain.. but you know its impossible that either of you would have stayed the same, and now youre so different that i dunno, youre almost scared to talk.. almost afraid to say something lest you find out that youve both changed into people who cannot understand each other any more.. have you ever felt like that? anyway, no matter.. im really really glad i met up with the mug groupers today.. and im even gladder that we had things to talk about, and we still can laugh at each others jokes and stuff.. as the song goes..

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?

oh my gosh people, do you know how nice it is that we still can meet up and still i dunno, do stuff together.. and even though our mug group www outing is like postponed indefinitely and even though lots of other things.. its really great having all of you as friends.. lets continue meeting up okay.. i dont want it to become like my parents and their friends.. they only meet like once or twice a year.. im sorry im going on and on about this, i didnt mean to ramble so much.. but im just thinking of all the promises we made to keep in touch and to stay friends and blah blah.. and i think about how many of those have not been kept.. ten years is a long time.. really really long, especially when its more than half of your life.. i grew up in that place okay.. i cant adapt to living out of mg.. omg this really sucks.. its not like acs a bad place or anything.. i guess ill probably miss it too when i leave.. but half my life here is gone already.. i just wish i didnt go in with the expectation that it would be so different and all, maybe things would have been better..
yeah anyway. the awkward conversations with the teachers were kinda nice too.. sorta.. i never was a model student.. hmm and i guess never will be.. but it just felt good seeing them again.. never mind that the whole school looks familiar yet unfamiliar now.. sigh. anyways heres going out to those who i havent seen in months: yihui, yuanyu, michelle, vicky, and yes shyna too! man, those really were the days, all the crazy stuff we did; to those i havent seen in slightly less: the mug group: jessie, cla, yicai, abi, may.. long days (and nights) at kap, sushi time, cramming bio, all the little trips to cold storage, watching wang zi bian qing wa even though we were supposed to be studying (cla i still think he doesnt look good) whatever on earth happened to the original mug group.. jo chan, i wonder how she is.. yihui, yihui.. we used to go kap and talk for hours on end then it got less and less frequent and now, virtually nonexsistent? i really really hope shes doing okay, this old old friend of mine.. see lah this is what school does to you; to those whom i see every other day but in a school like ac sometimes it doesnt even make a difference: pedal point: adele, qiyi, yanny; and to all generations of mg girls, past, future, present, especially the class of 2005 (even though sometimes when i see these people im really speechless cos there really isnt anything to say.. im still working on the small talk thing).. its not the whole thing though.. thats kinda too long..

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

hmm, i think if i just read the lyrics like that its quite.. a bit lame lah..
but anyways.. moving on.
yes. this week feels like a good week.. maybe its because im getting used to this whole 3-day school week thing.. i think... its awesome haha.. maybe in the future they should structure school so that its like three days go to school.. out of the three days of curriculum time, one third for tests/exams, the other two-thirds for teaching.. remaining two weekdays is for self-study and projects and elearning and stuff like that.. yay, i think id love school like that.. recently theres this brain block which causes my brain to switch off without warning.. its like i can even be thinking: omg yay i am actually paying attention! omg yay im actually learning something! the Na+ is pumped in and the K+ is pumped out (oh wait or is it the other way round) and the next thing i know is im stuck in the place between sleeping and waking.. and my note-taking either becomes non-exsistent or reduced to illegible scrawls in the edges of the paper.. i mean, if i try really hard id be able to somewhat guess what was written i guess.. but oh wells.. anyway, this week i managed to stay awake alot alot.. it must really be the three-day week thing.. and hurray cos next week is an official three-day week! :)
anyways, going back to my jia xiang tomorrow.. oh wait, thats today already.. totally not looking forward to it.. three whole days of pure pure torture.. *groans* if only this kinda thing can take mc and excuse yourself one.. i would say i was sick, but knowing my grandfather we would probably take it personally or sth.. like he didnt do enough as head of the family or something.. urks..

Bonjour. Si vous voulons me chercher, vous êtes venu au faux endroit.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

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