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Friday, February 23, 2007
you know, i wanted to have this nice long ranty thing but after watching the music video thingy of greys anatomy with all their weepy people and all their nice oh-i-am-so-loved smiles.. maybe not.. i guess the worlds just a really complicated place.. hmm, yes.. not complicated as in complicated complicated.. but complicated complicated.. haha oh my, isnt that complicated.. yes, and complicated kindnesses really do happen in real life i think.. when i say its okay.. i mean its okay, you dont have to apologise.. its okay, these things happen from time to time.. its okay, its not your fault.. not all 100% of it at least.. its okay, things will get better someday, somehow.. really really.. its okay.. it really is.. you know i really felt like giving my math tutor a hug.. okay dont get the wrong idea or anything.. hes this big guy whos like waaaay taller than me and all.. i just wanted him to know that he isnt alone in the world.. (yes, even though i dont agree with the way he handles stuff) but how do you do that? ah oh wells.. the mind of a passive aggressive person... is a weird thing.. he uses emotional manipulation in such a subtle way that both himself and those around him dont actually realise that it is taking place.. he is afraid of showing positive emotions (too much of it, at least) for fear being seen as dependent on others for his own happiness.. when things go wrong as they always do, (murphys law, remember), he somehow always manages to maintain the morally right position and portrays himself as the victim.. he tries to hide grievances, avoids conflict, and as much as possible, maintain the status quo, all this while keeping things inside.. when things get too much to bear, (after a long long while), he tries to project this image of reasoning and cool-headedness, while trying to provoke a response from the other party.. all these things actually have a very reasonable path in his head.. perfectly justifiable.. really.. you know when i am with/watch/talk to people, i cant help but see myself in them.. okay not like every single second of the day lah.. that would be serious brainal overload already.. but how do you tell somebody you dont know very well that hey im happy for you.. like really really.. or how do you say that you understand and that persons not alone and stuff.. like really.. but thats impossible, unbelievable right? and so i guess i shall have to be content (unless somebody tells me of a better way) with stoning and staring and maybe occasionally smiling.. hahaha the three Ses.. yar i so i guess if you see me stoning you know what i mean.. or i could be really stoning stoning.. hahaha.. anyways you know what, my dads got a new car how cool is that.. and its a really cool car two.. you dont even need a key! you just press this on/off button just like a machine.. wait a minute, a car is a machine.. and you can somehow connect your phone to the car.. i have no idea what that is for, but sounds pretty cool anyways.. oh yar, and the cars really really silent from the inside.. nice.. does this sound kinda mountain-tortoise-ish? haha sorry lah.. its like a kid with a new toy.. correction, new expensive toy.. haha yay.
10:15 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.
