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Thursday, April 05, 2007
you know whats, i think im falling in love with clair de lune the way i fell in love with elgar two years ago.. seems like both yesterday and aeons ago, huh.. i always thought, and always expected, that it would be the four of us going for syf together.. you know, like for the last time, wherever we may end up next time.. but now i guess not, huh.. oh wells, i guess life goes on.. i guess tkm said about the batch before us was sort of right.. i think.. i remember watching slack-jawed as this ensemble walked onto the stage in their not very neat looking school uniform.. you know how the ac uniform somehow or other (well on me at least) looks like not very presentable.. you know, this ensemble, which i most probably would join in the not-so-far-off future.. but when they sat down and played, i thought something along the lines of wow.. and yeah actually this is where i wanna go lah.. eh, last time i very hardworking one okay.. recess half an hour also got go and practise one.. *tries not to imagine all the eyes rolling around* now, aiyoh.. i also got no comment.. one hour break also dont wanna go and open britten.. *shakes head* anyways, hey guys lets make this one an unforgettable experience.. one where we can pick up the photos and they bring a smile to our faces, just like the 2005 syf still does for me.. haha i probably wont ever wanna play simple symphony again.. ill just.. i dunno, pick up the cd when im doing another of my random major room cleanups and give it a little listen.. just like the way i dont read books that i really really really liked like alot alot the first time round.. just in case the magic is lost the second time round.. ps. actually i didnt really mind rounds all that much what.. dunno why everybody didnt like it.. haha shoot me somebody? anyways, heres what ive been thinking about all week.. you know what, i think the world is unfair.. no im not gonna launch into a whole whiny ranty thing.. i was just thinking.. you know what, why me.. why am i born in singapore, this nice little country where the currency is relatively okay.. and i do like some little stuff i can earn enough money in a day which can feed a family somewhere out there for a week or perhaps even month.. okay maybe im exaggerating.. but anyways, why do i get to learn the piano, play the bass, go to school.. i mean why am i in a nice school which is, i dunno, partially airconditioned and yet we complain and ask why is it not fully airconditioned, instead of sitting on the sun-baked earth in the middle of goodness-knows-where, where even a pencil is considered luxury.. do i even deserve it? why do i have a decently functioning brain when sometimes i dont even try.. i mean, i can think of many many other people who certainly work way harder than me.. they deserve their sets of brains more than i do.. why me, then.. i certainly dont think its because of some wonderful things ive done in some previous life or anything.. that thought just seems rather weird to me.. okay im pretty sure all this sounds mighty odd right.. i mean, why complain about getting more than you deserve, just grab and run right? but neverminds, i am used to it, i think.. of late, people have said i am weird, strange, peculiar.. oh yes, my sister says im annoying but you really didnt need to know that.. but the weirdest, and perhaps funniest, of them all is the recentest.. emo kid.. haha, when i first heard it i was like what on earth?? i didnt know whether to laugh or cry.. really.. but anyways, i digress.. since i dont deserve all this, why dont i work harder so that you know, its not like such a waste and all? i dunno, there must be something wrong with my brain i think.. instead of making me feel like working harder, i just feel so like umm undeserving that i do even less? which, when you think about it logically, doesnt make much sense at all right.. :/ anyways, for those who still bother, happy easter in advance.. :)
hmm.. sometimes i wonder if im becoming a hypocrite.. i wonder..
10:16 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.
