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Tuesday, July 03, 2007
you know, if you asked me, id probably say the world is as it should be right now.. i mean, like the blessed silence, just the crickets and other miscellanous noise-making creatures, and the general stillness not present in the day.. beautiful. i wanna breathe it all in.. but i guess, when the stories we hear, the things we see, point to say otherwise.. are we able to turn away and return to our apathetic little lives, going about our daily routines as per normal? how easy it is to forget those whom we do not usually see.. especially when they are in some remote region i dont even know where on the map it is.. for the first+ hour or so i was like omg, you mean this is still happening? i mean like what happened to eradication poverty and i dunno, stuff like that.. you know, i subscribe to the newsletters and whatnot of some of these organisations, so many of them.. poverty, environment, that sort of thing.. sometimes i read them, sometimes i dont.. sometimes when i am free i help send an email, one in thousands, to some inluencial person or other asking for this and asking for that.. and i feel that, hey, ive done well maybe not a lot, but a bit today.. what wonderful delusions they make.. and already, i feel myself being enconsced (no idea how to spell that) in this coccoon of the everyday life, ready to forget.. and i suppose, when school begins in a couple of hours, routine will take over and i dunno, this will fade away.. i suppose thinking of like working for the UN or i dunno, somewhere or other where we can exact change is like, i dunno, a comforting sort of fairytale? what are you gonna do then.. donate more money? how can you be sure the money goes to the right place.. write more letters/petitions? like hello, as far as i can tell, my emails resulted in some animals being put on the protected list, and perhaps some measures being taken? i dunno.. i cant really remember any like significant progress on the poverty side.. i can so see myself slipping back into the routine of school and stuff, just one more apathetic person in a world of billions.. really? anyways, all hope is not lost.. i suppose for those whose circumstance is the bleakest, hope becomes more of a necessity than a luxury.. this morning i dropped a cup.. it like happened so fast that the only coherent thought that occured before it hit the ground was "break" or that it was gonna break. but it didnt.. it kinda hit the floor cloth, bounced even, and landed on my foot.. it reminded me of the story people tell of this philosophy professor who didnt believe in god. he would challenge those you came into his class, telling them stuff like if there is a god and he is ___ and ____ (kinda mutilating the story a little, but i cant really remember see..), why cant he stop a chalk from breaking.. if there is one of you in the lecture hall who believes in a god, then i dunno, he asks them to stand up and say why or something like that.. i cant really remember.. but anyways, so every semester students go away cowed, not daring to stand up for their faith, and every semester, the professor dropped the chalk and it broke.. until one day a student stood up and challenged the professor.. *fastforward a little* and when the professor dropped the chalk, it got caught in the material of his pants, rolled down onto the floor, unharmed.. i guess there are three ways to look at things such things.. one is to look at it and say, that was a coincidence, and coincidences happen all the time.. even events with one in a million chance of happening will happen eventually.. or you could walk away thinking: god is so good/powerful/ any other edjective.. and *awestruck* kinda thing.. or i guess walk away unfazed and unchanged.. you know, things like this happen.. i figure im the last, doing a lot of fence-sitting sometimes.. which are you.. anyhoo. yes better do some work before tomorrow, no today, makes scrambled eggs of me.. and i suppose, no time to think about the suffering of those who have to means to help themselves.. yes, we will all do something tomorrow.. like, totally.
4:28 am
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.
