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Friday, December 21, 2007
it feels good make sarcastic jokes which are so sarcastic that theyre lame. the cheapest form of sarcasm. but yeah. hmm well yes certainly feels good to suddenly not bother about those tuition agents. and not to worry about making it on time from one place to another. what was that quote about poking fun at the things dearest to you again. i cant remember. my dad is amazingly watching one of those sappy chinese serial thingies. i cant believe it. yes anyways i was saying sarcasm. come near but not too near. the world as they say is a stage and we are but actors in it? people see what they want to see, life is a masquerade is it not? yes come close but not too close, ill run. because solitude is good remember? and loneliness is the human condition, and to expect anything more is to set yourself up for disappointment. no, not that i dont enjoy human interaction. yes i believe i do, after a fashion. just dont come too close all right.. yeahh but that being said, ive kinda given up the idea of buying a huge plot of the land in the super middle of nowhere and just staying there. not feasible. hmm, just like the blue hair thing which i wanted for the longest of times. oh, and the eyeliner thing? im starting to get this idea that if i heap on the eyeliner, all the little kiddos will probably freak out. no good no good. oh well, not like i knew how to put on eyeliner anyways.
DID YOU KNOW that tomorrow would be one month since the bio paper. one month since the last paper ended. well for me at least.. and one month since the end of well, all that. i am the worlds biggest procrastinator man. im not very sure what i was expecting to have achieved, but well. more than this certainly. im free im free im free. but i havent exactly done muchness with this... freeness/freedom thing. oh yesh, but i am slowly learning that big things come in small bits. which kinda disagrees with i dunno, the way i do everything.. i mean, do it fast and all at one shot right? or rather not do it at all if it even seems like its gonna be less than perfect. but noooo. how does it work? you chip away at the rock little by little until maybe something like a century later you get a masterpiece which is posthumously acclaimed. hmm yes such is life. you live and then you die and then what? is death the abscence of life. is that all. there is no point, is there. there is simply no point to chipping away at those rocks if we are but mere dust in the scheme of things and the wheel of time would just turn and life (as we know it) just rolls right now. hmms if anybodys church has that kind of exploratory kinda talk thingoes please do invite me. or yeah whatever religion actually. i just wanna know. not that it would make that much to this reluctant chipper of rocks, but yeah i do wanna know. or at least know to the human extent of knowing. andand, if anybody is or knows a mormon, i wanna meet one okay? did i tell about about this national day that just passed, on an impulse i walked into that church of latter day saints at newton when i was passing by on the bus. i wish i could tell you an absolutely awesome story about how i got converted or how i thought it was absolute hogwash, but no. i went in and it was completely empty. yeah, so much for meeting mormons. i forgot that it was a public holiday and not a sunday or something.. i really wanna know though.. they really do believe all that? like 100%? how and why, goodness. okay but yeah if theyre happy well then hmm i suppose okay... oh yes anyways, yeah what is there to life but the end of it? (no im not being suicidal or anything here) is there anything after death? must there be something after death? it seems incomplete or lacking somehow right.. like what, this and nothing else? god i feel cheated.
who wants to live forever who wants to love forever http://youtube.com/watch?v=Zo52T7uKOJU haha, i remember one time i kept on scrolling back trying figure out if that guy was really playing the bass in the middle there.. never quite decided until one day i decided that it didnt matter at all. :/
anyways yes despite all i said about leaving fantasy behind i am pretty much hooked on that series right now.. the one that i never got around to finishing. real life pales in comparison and i cant stop treating people like theyre storybook characters this is so insane.. even though reading small words makes my eyes hurt when reading towgays doesnt. ho hum. i should really get a life. a real life not a fictional one hurrhurr.
10:28 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.
