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Monday, December 31, 2007
okay. so last day of 2007. thats a hurray, i suppose. this last month has been so eventful the rest of the year just pales in comparison.. okay lah, not like we didnt do anything during the whole year, but still. we havent achieved much per se, but ah, i think weve come a respectable distance this four weeks lah, for the average person, what more for people like us who shy away from long-term consistent chipping away at something to achieve something or other. but lesson learnt: before doing anything, must survey the market first. and one month is super not enough heh. but oh wells.
anyways. christmas was so-so i guess, whatwith relatives coming down from malaysia and all.. but what struck me was this gathering my mum had with some of her batch girls and others from the army/saf/or some other related place.. i was like sitting there, not really contributing to the conversation since there really wasnt anything much for me to say.. butbutbut amazingly i felt this sense of camaraderie and it did feel much nicer than some/many conversations with people our age.. haha there was this computer person who was like "i always go to the toilet before i drive so that i can feel relaxed when i drive" she is like so super cute and likeable lah. and some part of me wants to be like her when i grow up? like somewhat geeky, possessing some uncommon skill like being able to build your own computer.. and drawing a sense of achievement from things like painting your own house, and that straightforwardness hurrhurr. i cannot help liking her. and believe it or not, the thought of "hmm, maybe joining the army isnt that bad an idea afterall" did actually cross my mind.. although it was kinda shortlived, the idea. the rigidity, the whole long-termness of the jobs just make me go :/ cannot cannot. id die of boredom.yes, these capable middle-aged women in the midst of career changes and whatnot, i felt i could relate to better than umm, other people. oooold.
oh yesh, speaking of christmas gatherings and celebrations and such stuff, as usual, im not gonna make any new years resolution cos i know its not gonna make a difference haha. yeah, like how will i know if i dont try right. but ah wells. the idea of having to do something for such a long time just err, turns me off.. umm i mean like yeah sure, i can wake up at seven every morning.. but if i say okay every morning from now on i must wake up at seven then chances are, its gonna fall through. maybe its a subconscious way of reminding oneself that the world is not perfect and will not, cannot ever be.. and no goal is ever completely achievable 100%, every utopia bound to be marred by a smudge, no matter how indistinct. and such is life, is it not? missed chances, inflated hopes, and (not-so)perfectness. but then plod along, it does, this thing called life. but we cant just drop out of this life thing, can we.. without it there would be nothing.. and so we just, plod along i guess?
10:51 am
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.
