okay, bad link down there.. this video still manages to make me well, snort in some form of laughter, though i cant say much for the laughing out loud though.. only things that are so fantastical and removed from reality can make me laugh. used to be fantasy, that.. until the living the loving the fighting and then the dying got quite the same after a while.. still havent finished that series though.. anyways. recently found malcolm bradbury's eating people is wrong in some corner of the house, sitting there for years waiting to be read.. its like one of those books you know youd probably enjoy in time to come just that the time hasnt come yet.. by the time youve forgotten about it and found it again, perhaps the time is just right.. i must have gotten it somehow at least two years ago and its been sitting there since and i wouldnt have found it if not for this sdjkbfasuigtsuigt student i have to see first thing tomorrow morning.. (i was looking for stickers) anyways. it managed to be something about teaching. a little. somewhat. god? chance? a good system of storing books? :/ anyways. heres a bit of it:
"I feel really sorry for him," said Emma. "It's simply impossible, of course, to respond fairly to him; there's just no common ground." "Oh," said Treece sharply. "I wouldn't have thought that was true. Indeed, you seem to have disproved it." "Well, it's like talking to children," said Emma. "You get some pleasure out of doing it, but you never really feel you're exhibiting any part of youreself; just exercising in a void, and that just isn't good enough for you yourself." "Oh, you expect too much from life," said Treece, adding with a sweet smile, "You're just like me."
another bit?
"But why are we teaching in a university in the first place? Goodness knows it's not for the money. It isn't because we want to teach, or because, simply, we love scholarship. Isn't it because we want to live in a world of circulating ideas and critical valuations? Isn't it because we love independence and freedom of thought? Or am I being naive?" "In a way, Stuart, I really think you are," said Viola. "Well, I don't," said Treece. "If our function isn't to talk about what is good when the rest of the world is talking about what is profitable, what can we do?" Lionel Marshall interposed: "You seem to think that the function of the university is to give a training in taste and to improce the standards by which people live. But to what effect? How would this serve them, as far as their social function is concerned?" "They would act as a group of protestants when people tried to lower standards and mortgage the values of our civilisation; you must admit there is always that risk."
okay well, it only gets to the really good part on the next page.. its late, dont like typing with punctuation, the whole thing is long, *inserts other lame excuses* so you can either get the book yourself or borrow it from me..
2:00 am
today i learnt that marvellous is spelt m-a-r-v-e-l-l-o-u-s and not m-a-r-v-e-l-o-u-s, as one of the books by a certain author with the initials j. p. would have me believe.. to be honest, it had me a little freaked back there though.. afterall, ive told no less than two students that the correct spelling was with the double-l.. and believe it or not, CAs are like, less than a month from now? like, wth? id thought id have nothing to do with exams again, but apparently not. i have no idea what these parents are expecting, but an improvement in grades seems quite quite necessary right? not to mention the few who consistently dont do their work (sound familiar, anyone?) or the girl who wants to jump to grade two? i mean, are miracles supposed to happen here? i come in, see these people for a couple of hours max each week, i hope it helps some way or another? :/ right now my looking-forward-to days are wednesdays and fridays. because, well.. i dont have to think so much? we manage to get quite a bit done, plus talking thrown in for good measure? oh. and... no cajoling (upper pri word, that) needed to do the homework, which he does more than any of the other peoples.. hmmhmmhmm. oh and (not being very partial here) and he knows the the dresden dolls are.. is that coolios or what? okay, he did think theyre weird. but well, at least he knows who they are? cant say i knew people who might have been marginally cooler (now is cooler spelt with one or two l's?) at that age.. i only knew, what, westlife? and i only recently found out who queen was/were.. okay, theres things like youtube now, and song downloads and stuff.. but still. oh wells.
2:00 am
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
He sat on the train looking out of the window. He was sure he was right about the acrobatics display; but even if it was all rubbish he was still going to carry on believing it. If it helped get him through to the time when he was completely free to make the mistakes that they were all making, then what was the harm?
nick hornby.
i know. its an insane place to get a quote from. but oh well.. the other day i was telling my mum and my sis about this all or nothing thing. and they did quite think i was half barmy. rachel kept coming up with examples of how it wouldnt work out at all, like since you cant eat everything then why dont you just dont eat? and like if you cant sit at your favourite seat on the bus you might as well go stand.. and like since you ponned so many days of school why dont you just drop out? i must say though, not that the last never crossed my mind. it did, quite a bit. but then quitting meant getting nothing. nada. zilch. gosong. nothing concrete, at least.. although given a chance to change anything id still do it the same.. (just forget that id not change anything with the rest of my life either. we cant all be hiro nakamuras, can we? after all, theres no planet to save (not counting global warming and all, not in that sense)) anyways, yeah so, not that i could fathom where else to go, so well..
8:15 am
Thursday, January 17, 2008
i cant get enough of rent. i was supposed to start doing something at eight larh, but im still here. now im thinking of reviving the whole one-year project thing. hmmhmm. no marnee. februarys coming soon. shucks, at this rate, ill soon be living on credit. badbad. clearing out my banking account soon, omg. how much does a digital camera cost, anybody?
8:41 am
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
hohoho, guess what my dad brought back today. something which goes like this:
Certificate of Participation
Awarded to
RACHEL WANG SHUYA
for successfully completing the
10km - Women
in the
Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon
on Sunday, 2 December 2007 in the time of
1:10:26
hohoho. yes. admittedly it does say rachel wang ran the thing but that was me k? *beams*
although right now if i ran the thing again id probably take 2 hours, hurrhurr.
anywaysies. right somehow stuff have magically been cleared and i have my time to myself again. woots. i dunno how that happened also. in the end i have averagely 1-2 students per day. i feel so, yayed right now. no more rushing like crazy. and. no more running for students who dont wanna pay. okay, except for saturdays. yeah, except for saturdays. i cant drop those two idunnowhatocallthems okay.. the ones who 1) always niehnieh during lessons 2) always bargain the homework, and even then the younger one hasnt done for the past dunno how many lessons.. 3) always ask me to stay back for experiments. did you know i never knew how to do the volcano experiment until recently? haiyars. anyways, did you know. this is what throws the average 11 year-old into laughing fits and amuses them to no end. enjoy.
anyways. dont watch movies at gv k.. is it gv, the one at vivo? i think so lah.. so many advertisements, it just spoils the whole mood.. urkies. its like, one third the length of the movie itself lah.. okay maybe im exaggerating, but yeah.
oh shucks. i just got a call from a parent. im late! shucks.
9:33 am
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
wow my mum is the bestest. tonight for dinner: ham and some pasta thing and mayonnaise. and that was originally meant to go into the oven.. until i convinced her that mayonnaise wouldnt appreciate the oven treatment..
9:03 pm
right now wondering if there are any movies worth forking out moolah for. and suddenly i thought of the first ever movie i sneaked into when i was underaged. so..
first (and only) movie i ever snuck into: the ladykillers. that was, in sec three i think. it was nc16 and then it was an impulse thing, you know? i asked for a ticket and they wanted to check my id and so, i said the most brilliant thing ever. i didnt have it. so well, couldnt get in that way. i resigned myself to watching wimbledon, an even bigger waste of money, but oh well. i got in, then walked into the ladykillers theatre instead. so there. ho hum, not that i enjoyed the movie muchly, it would have been funnier if i had been watching the movie for entertainments sake. there were a few laughable punchlines, i think. it was about some guys and some illicit money and in the end every one of them died and the old lady whose house they were living in walked in and saw the pile of money there, the end. but the getting to the end was pseudo-funny, though. i think. quite foggy up there. oh yeah, the rating was for the language, i think. it was a bit eyebrow-raising. so. anyways. so much for underage movie watching.
movie(s) that made me tear: van helsing. really really, and can i emphasize really, stupid movie to get emotional about, but oh well. it was fantasy. and in fantasy people die.
movie(s) that made me cry: life is beautiful. oh. :/ oh yes and the choirboys. the part where they were singingsinging and throwing planes and messages out of the window even though they were locked in? oh goodness.
movie(s) that made me cry.. while watching with my family: the titanic. oh goodness gracious me. damn paiseh. thank goodness we were watching it on channel five, i went to hide in my room during commercial breaks hawhawhaw.
movie(s) that made me bored to tears: scarey movie i cant remember what. this was super great eyeball rolling. cant imagine how im still able to see quite well as of today.
movie(s) that made me scared of what our world is today and what it will become: darwins nightmare. urkies. you should really watch this, oh you of the first world nation. watch this and repent.... and go back to your old life a couple of weeks/months down the road. which was what i did, leastways.. not that im proud of it, of course.. but. 1) if the truth is not flung in your face every single day that hey there those living a less-than-splendid life somewhere out there, or perhaps right here in our midst even, then it is easy to forget. it is easy to imagine it all away and think, oh hell, what difference does it make anyway? 2) and oh yes, what difference does it make, really? if youve caught up with me in the past couple of months youll probably realise that i dont go: finish your rice, think about the poor starving children in africa and where else, or something like that. even if i did, it was probably out of habit. i dont believe in that any more. i mean, what can that clod of rice/meat/vege do? be flown back to wherever it is needed? no. it goes either into the bin or into the stomach. and if going into your stomach makes you feel worse off for it, why then, by all means throw it away! which brings me to the next point. 3) what does one man living on this earth owe another? nothing. not considering those that youre related to and have come into contact to. the feeling of needing to help those more in need is purely one of moral duty and the like. luck and chance put you in a time and place that was more fortunate, and because if you were one of those no-so-lucky ones, youd wish that those luckier ones would give you a hand too. and so you help the less fortunate because of this idontknowwhatyoucallitness. either that or you were brought up to. its in your conditioning. say something enough times and youll end up believing it. if youre told to help otherssss help othersss help othersss... or finish your fooddddd finish your fooddddd finish your foooodddddd... then chances are, you probably will. unless youre one of those few who are able to resist this sort of thing. so anyways what was the point of all this, i forget. hmms yes about helping others and whatnot. and movies. so.
movie(s) that made me laugh and smile.. like, for real: darjeeling limited. the latest ive caught, actually. sometimes the journey is so pointless and so omg-what-plotline-is-this-ish that you actually enjoy the journey so much more. and in a way it was like real life too. yes, this one did make me laugh and smile and walk a little lighter..
movie(s) that left me thinking: huh?: amelie. much lauded but, huh? maybe its a thing with french and indie films.. theyre really beautiful, really pretty, like take-your-breath-away, but there really isnt much point.. unless of course you watch it at one of those magic moments where everything just click and youre so awestruck that you go: omg, this is genius! but then again, how often does that happen.. and even then, you can never watch it again and get that same feeling.. oh yes, a few other french films left me a bit huh-ish too, but i cant remember what theyre called..
movie(s) with heartwrenching scenes(s): oliver twist, the version which came out in sec3sec4 that time.. i watched it in a really small theatre which i really regretted buying the ticket for after i walked in but oh wells. the heartwrenching part was at the end, where faggins was to be hanged and he was screaming away as oliver walked away.. yes very heartwrenching.
movie(s) really not worth your money and which have their part twos in cinemas right now but are still so popular, i dont know why: national treasure and alien vs. predator.. please please, dont watch those if you havent already.. they are such a waste of money, time, and brain space you really dont want to go to the effort of travelling to the cinemas. but then again, at this rate no movie will ever be watched so.. ho hum.
movie(s) that made me think, yes, this is life, this is what we are born to: v for vendetta.. although when it first came out i thought that it was some flick about blood and war in olden times because of the bus stop ads. rawr.
anyways. so much for movies. cant think of many more right now.. i tell you arh. i changed my mind about something. again. i decided for the umpteenth time that i am not moving out after all. which was what started this spending spree, because the last month has been sheer paranoia about money-spending.. and why? because the piano tuner came and in the mean time he did that voicing thing, which looked something like using a sharp thing to poke the hammerheads.. which was something a bit different from the scarier stuff i heard, like shaving off the top layer or something like that.. but boy, what a difference did it make. my mind changed itself there and then so which means now im staying put until at least the release of the results so that i can decide what to do with myself, and of course, play on the piano in the meantime.. not that it sounds like what i had imagined it would sound like. :/ not enough for me to postpone my moving out for a few months, not when ive been dreaming about it on and off for years and years. but i cant unmake my mind now. oh wells. which also means my motivation for doing all this is like just dieded. and im like, omg how now brown cow? errs. ??? todays lesson was like omg why on earth did i cover so little?! the others miraculously shifted themselves to other days and times.. oh wow. urkies.
7:54 pm
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
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currently engaging in several not so desirable activities such as leg-shaking, finger-tapping, etc. you know why? right now waiting for the autolyse to be done.. baking whole wheat loaves today, tried them before but not this recipe and im like omgggg.. bread is like so bready lah. you have all these little factors that you dont even know if youre doing them right.. and then theres the waiting.. and the waiting.. and... you guessed it. even more waiting.. so right now im in the first waiting part, the autolyse. heres where you allow the gluten to develop without actually needing to do anything. no kneading, no electricity spent on mixers and stuff.. you just wait. usually 20-30 mins technically fine.. but then this is a whole wheat bread! *vigorous nail-biting ensues* whole wheat flour more temperamental one you know? they soak up the water like crazy and then make you feel like adding more liquid at this early stage. badbad, very bad. so. anyways. longer autolyse for whole grain flours. really thirsty people, them. currently left about a quarter an hour for the autolyse. but then again, the longer the more gluten development. rarh. thats what its like with breadmaking. it can be done this way, but to make it taste even better you can do this, can do that, then after reading all that im like.. err, huh? so how now brown cow? :/ okay anyways, autolyse minimum time up, ill go and do the next stuffs.. ill probably be back here engaging in distracting activities during the first and second rise heh.
11:31 am
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.