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Monday, April 07, 2008
you know what. i dont know why but it feels so shit when i hear that people applied for the thing(s) that i wanted to apply for but didnt. i know, that is like so stupid right. its my own darn fault i didnt apply, not anybody else's. it just feels so sucky applying anywhere with wishy washy grades. even though i just might have chosen to the same thing even with better stuff but oh wells. but ALL OR NOTHING. how can you feel good about applying somewhere you really really wanna go to with results youre ashamed of? sometimes i feel like telling my parents.. omg, im really sorry alright? it couldve been so right.. i didnt mean to.. .. didnt plan on.. umm.. sucking so much at stuff. *finishes lamely* of course, i could always apply the next year, or even the next next, like my uncle suggested. do something that would utterly shock/upset my parents, like go backpacking for a year or two or sth. yeah.. why not right. especially since ive wanted to do just that since like forever.. but to save up and pay for my own education instead. but dunno. what other people say has gotten into my head somewhat. like stopping studying for a year is really detrimental to your future or something, according to just about every adult (besides that uncle)who's wanted to add his/her dunno-how-many-cents-worth.. i mean, its just a year in a life of many right? but why does that feel so.. not entirely wrong, not definitely right either..
hmm. so. a big question mark on the month of august for the year 2008 for now.
12:17 am
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.
