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Monday, September 29, 2008
i suppose then.. it is easier to disprove something than to prove something?
12:24 pm
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
sigh, will they never learn. deciding the outcome of a lawsuit without a trial = bad = no good. =( how can they do that?! if i broke a school rule, id still want to be given a chance to explain myself right.. no matter what the outcome.. id be surprised if they didnt ask why i say, vandalised their wall or insulted one of the heads or something. no matter what the outcome and punishment is you know.. like i know im did something against the rules (aka criminal) i know im gonna get punished if i vandalise a wall, but id still find it very out of the ordinary if they merely passed judgement without trying to find out my rational and giving me a chance to defend myself. so it was decided without trial that FEER was guilty of defamation. should be correct bah, this news. if reuters says so? okay, lets not even talk about whether theyre even guilty of anything k.. that one, if you wanna look at the constitution and talk about it, its debatable? but come on, dont they even have the right to a trial? =((
by the way cla: its official. clay aiken is gay. it never did cross my mind but oh well.. just wanted to say a big AWWW and give him a great big hug, which i doubt hed want to happen lah haha oh wells. and reuters also best lah. go and use his most unflattering shot out of seven in the article as their main one. rawrs. but err, actually he used to look alot better previously hurrhurr.
10:21 pm
my dad always says that there are three kinds of people in the world: those who make things happen those who watch things happen and then there are those who wonder what happened.
i guess i should really start trying to make things happen huh.
1:28 pm
Monday, September 22, 2008
hmm, if revolutionaries usually dont make good political leaders / nation builders, then does it mean that to be safe, we shouldnt vote for csj and by extension sdp? haha anyways. the ps lecturers are always so funny in their own ways. ANYBODY TAKING PS OUT THERE. i doubt so but anyways. you know the usual lecturer, shh dont tell anyone but i thought he looked quite cute the previous week when we was wearing the pink shirt with a tie. haha yes the school boy look. i was wondering where he was last week when the guy who likes to walk around came in.. but hes quite funny too.
anyways. the other day i was walking past the tcc express (is it tcc? or is it some other coffee thingy? anyways. i am a scone and milk fan. hurray. like who buys their fresh milk at exorbitant prices lah. probably only me. she gave me such a huh, do we have that on our menu look when i first asked for it) and i overheard some girl saying that its all so introductory. id like to say a big AYE! i totally agree with you man.. every single module is like that lah.. (err, maybe because you took all exposure mods hurrhurrhurr) yeah but stillll.. its like, i dunno. every two weeks you change to a new topic in primary/secondary school. this week its algebra. oh, x + x = 2x. and x times x is x squared. and maybe y and y and a little bit more. and, before they tell you that hey theres stuff like algebraic equations and you can use them to draw graphs and even *gasp* do calculus, they move on to the next topic. oh lookee here! we're doing graphs this week! this here's the x-axis and theres the y-axis.. oh you know, they can represent different things in different situations (gives examples) oh yes and theyre quite useful when youre doing experiments and trying to predict results and such.. and before telling us that you can actually imagine what a curve will look like just by looking at its quadratic equation, poof! we're off to the next topic! and hohoho, here comes essay time. errrrrr. cher, how come need to use a bit of the algebraic equations and need to know how to draw our own graph huh?
anyways, enough about school. i am officially a very happy person today. mentally, my hols have just begun today cos there was the ts test. boy oh boy was there ever a more technical field. i dunno, maybe engineering cant even beat it. i mean, why on earth would we wanna know what plato thought of drama? or some other guy whose name i cant remember, for that matter? they are old. and loooong dead. why would they matter. (i mean well yeah i guess theyre important.. but so important that we have two questions on them? =( ) fyi, i totally didnt know how to answer those two questions cos i totally skipped them thinking them very irrelevent. oh wow. i mean like, name the seven thingies of the other nameless guy backwards? ?!? oh wells. anyways. its over. and my hols have started! *gringringrin*
i shall luxuriate in this wondrous freedom until tomorrow when i shall remember that a few essays need writing, a few tests need a-studying-for, fingers (as always) need excercise, french needs some more revision (whats new). my mother, the wet blanket she is, says that while others are relaxing i should be working harder. to catch up, why else. why, mother, i really do have to applaud your confidence in your dear daughter. err. not that her words are unfounded lah. heh heh. anyways my dad was saying the other day and i thought it was really quite funny. if everybody were like either my mum or me, the economy would go bust. if they were all like her, then nobody would be spending on anything. all the advertisements wouldnt work. the economy would slow to a stop. people would get laid off. and etc. et moi? it would end up something like the us housing thingy. people living on credit. companies having no money. oops. and of course, he ended off with the customary: thank god theres people like me. okay fine. i added that last sentence in. he said something like, i dunno what he said. something like it would be okay if everybody were like me or something? i dunno.
11:05 pm
Friday, September 19, 2008
ask yourself. what is really going on.
sorry sorry sorry. when're you gonna get it into your head that sorry ain't no cure.
2:55 pm
Monday, September 08, 2008
i do not apologise for being part of a generation that is highly capable of spending money, more selfish than those that precede it, less attached to traditional units of society etc.. of course what goes into that sentence there depends on your point of view but oh well, perhaps guilty as charged? and you can say that i make myself less reponsible for my actions by phrasing it in such a way that its not just me, its not my problem. its universal. so okay yes. i am spendthrift, selfish, do not hold to family or religion, etc. yup alrighty, guilty as charged.
but do i care. well, maybe i do.. a little bit at least. you know, the twinges of guilt from time to time.. the sudden realisation that shit i should/shouldnt have done something or other. but you know what, yelling that you hope/wish that all the children who disobey their parents fall sick (today it happened to be all three of us) is not going to make you sound more rational and neither is it going to induce feelings of remorse. and neither is saying that those who ______(cant remember what, but i suppose it was referring to me) will be cursed. okay look, i know *grimaces at this point* i am at fault too.. but neither are you perfect so... why cant we sit down and talk nicely in a manner that resembles that of civilised human beings.. yeah well, with the inevitable raised voice, sure. but at least you know, coherently and with some form of restraint, etc. ill air my grievances and you can air yours and hopefully well find some kinda middle ground somewhere? never mind if its 1 cm2 in size or anything..
anyhow. so the week has started. im just trying to enjoy every moment of this week because i know the french test is next week. darn. but anyways, kinda looking forward to wednesday but not in a omg i cant wait kinda way cos i really cant play come stuff heh. oh and boy am i glad i went to school on friday. ts prac totally made my day.. i mean, it was out-of-comfort-zonish but it kinda reminded me of a time when i actually enjoyed going for speech and drama lessons. go = aller. yes, this is the limit of my pathetic knowledge of french.
10:58 pm
Thursday, September 04, 2008
what do i do when theres a problem or realise that ive created a problem?
i make it worse.
11:32 pm
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
my mum is well.. i dunno. indescribable, really.
8:40 am
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
and so it has come to be that i, the disbeliever of the psuedo-inspirational, have borrowed a self-help book from the library. that is... or rather, would have been, such a violation of my uhh, what-to-call-it, ideals/principals? i mean, come on! self-help books are reserved only for those with the strength of mind to fool themselves into believing what these people say. after all, they only work if you believe in them. and why wouldnt you, its written to make you fall for it, hook line and sinker (really didnt mean to be cliche but oh wells) and yes, they fall squarely into the category of pseudo-inspirational. now come to think of it, i havent quite used that term in a really looong time. thats bad, isnt it.. it means im... mellowing? i dunno. doesnt quite sound like a good thing, does it. anyhoo. what is pseudo-inspirational anyways? pseudo-inspirational is mitch albom, the alchemist (i totally didnt get the story btw), friends are friends forever if the lords the lord of them, because you live, because of you i never stray too far from the sidewalks, the bible (depends on which part youre reading i guess), chicken soup (any and all versions), somewhere over the rainbow, i believe i can fly, any dream will do, little women, feel-good movies and their soundtracks, clair de lune, etc.
so yeah. by definition i dont read, watch, listen to any of the above except under unusual circumstances, and self-help books are for well.. other people? so what am i doing exceeding my loan quota for a book which reads "how to talk to anyone: 92 little tricks for big successes in relationships" ?! like, what on earth, right? (btw even though the loan limit for books is actually ten, they do let you take out more. the librarian let me borrow twelve haha! even though i dunno how im gonna finish all of them lah) yeah so anyways, why? i think maybe studying about the world we live in can either result in profound optimism because of the various mechanisms already in place for looking after things in general, or something rather the opposite. i mean yeah its cool and fun and all but, the world sure has a hell lot of problems. hte library's really cool. im like the library's new biggest fan. quiet quite, nobody that i know, everybody minding their own business, etc. anyways, yesterday i came across this whole section on suicide and i had to pick out the one that said something like moral justifications for suicide.. it was enlightening but, i dunno, depressing? (yes i still do hate that word) i mean, wow! i cant even be a proper statistic, hahaha. majority come from broken homes, a large number drop out of school though not for academic reasons, 40+% have parents who've attempted or succeeded before, and yeah well the list goes on. it was just.. depressing. and then theres the whole mcdonaldization book ive been reading. i was thinking. gee, this family of ours, it really is rationalized, huh. what with my dad and efficiency and his premium of not wasting time (as you can see im not a very big fan of it) and the whole doing things for a reason. i mean like the other day rachel was like asking me, why are you learning this, why are you doing that, what are you gonna do with it, hows it gonna help you? i was like, wth? i cant i learn something just because its nice? i think singapore is one big rationalized society, more so than the us even. and its kinda sad, maybe? i dunno. i never lived a kampung life. if you threw me into a completely unrationalized place, id be i dunno, at a loss of how to survive.
anyways. so why self-help all of a sudden? it got me thinking, all this. how do i fit into society. wait a minute, fit into society? i dont even like people in the first place. i mean, not that i dont like people, but i really can do without some of the interactions that people find so important.. the other day my grandmother was being really concerned and kept on calling cos my parents were away, and she asked if i was ji mo and she didnt believe me when i said no. i mean come on, its not even at night. its the morning. i love my mornings like that. nearly all my mornings are like that. its arguably the best time of the day. waking up when everybodys just about gone, or maybe in time to exchange a few customary sentences or perhaps a few acidic comments thrown in.. (but not too acidic, mind. its just the start of the day. ph 5 or 6 maybe?) but of course, too little human interaction is bad as well? leads to stuff which leads to suicide and all.. so, not good. not that i dont like human interaction, really. so anyways. thats why im reading a self help book. i need to be more.. interactive. i found it so weird during soci tutorial the other day. we had to be in like groups of ten and had to discuss the stuff. i prefer it to be like, i dunno. a whole class discussion thingy? its this theory of shared responsibility or something like that i think. oh wells whatever. it didnt help that it was so boring. i mean, seriously, go read the text. go pay attention during lecture, stop your socializing or sleeping. go try attempting your tutorial questions. i was really surprised that even those who did the tutorial questions (most people?) just went through it as though it was a fresh question. yeah. wells. its quite funny, really, the book. but helpful i guess. im really gonna practice the stuff so beware of the sticky eyes and the flooding smile hahaha..
dvorak, get outta my head. its not funny after awhile.
11:19 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.