Thursday, November 06, 2008

GOOD NEWS. fass students can now s/u their language modules. yesyesyes. omg. i love cls now can. it totally like made my day. i am so going for french three then. hahaha yays! not sure if im s/uing this mod lah. but its kinda comforting to know that my gpa is now not like completely dead. this rocks my socks. like, totally.

anyways, philo essay is starting to get a bit headachey. nonono. youre supposed to be fun. anyways. ive decided that philo is definitely not going to be my major. the language is such a barrier. im like having trouble with all the secondary texts and even the simplified secondary texts, can you imagine what will happen in the higher level mods where you have to read the primary texts? is that even what theyre called? my cousin, is.. hmm. i dunno what to say. he reads plato. like, as a source of.. like you know how they say that a diamond would be nothing but coal if not for the pressure and the heat? yeah. something like that. he reads it to.. i dunno. scrape off the unnecessary, in a way? hes quite good, actually. at flopping down my arguments. just like he says his friend is way better at flopping down his. its just that.. hes a bit too radical. and i dunno.. just get the feeling some of his interpretations are i dunno. out of context? yeah. but hell do really well if he comes to fass i think. but he wants to do geog. *makes face* nieh. anyways. so yeah. number one, the language. number two, i know that the unexamined life is not worth living, but too much grey is not good either. yes. in that case id rather be the unenlightened masses. umm, not the subset of the masses which takes the opiate called religion. the set which cant be bothered with philo, i suppose.

anyways. every day i learn something new. something about me, something about you. something about society. and after a while, you realise that all the disciplines are linked in some way or another. its quite enlightening and very.. disconcerting, to learn about yourself. and the role/part you are playing/ will play in society. and not very nice to know that some of the things you can try doing are bound to fail anyways. or that you are not a change-maker, you do not believe so strongly in things that you become a revolutionary. like feminism. is it inevitable. can we really have a 100% change. laying down for the father, really. thats what i meant when i said that. pandering to the desires of the opposite gender. buying into the whole thing. i want to change something. and yet.. i am not so radical. i do not believe in it so much that i will actually force myself against the status quo. a little here and there, maybe yeah. but never enough to make any large scale change. haha, and today during theatre studies practical, clubbing. hahaha. okay well, not very funny actually. he was giving the example of people clubbing as a liminal moment/experience. wont explain here. not very funny. or in philo, i realised that im a believer in egoism. not a very flattering thing to believe in. haha im just hoping nobody knows what egoism means, actually. and cant be bothered to find out. you find out all these things about yourself. and i guess if youre an altruistic person, etc etc. finding out wouldnt be so bad.. but i find myself identifying with these categories and groups that dont sound so nice. arent in fact so nice, actually. that it really is quite disturbing. and yet you cant not find out. i mean, who doesnt want to find out about themselves. i guess in this case you could also say the unexamined life is not worth living? not in context lah, but oh wells.

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Thursday, November 06, 2008

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