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Tuesday, November 04, 2008
thoughts from the hometown. it was surprisingly rather nice to go back to malacca after all this while. you know, see relatives and stuff. the slower pace of life, the chickens that roost in the trees, the small kampung chicken eggs, the bathing with water from a big well-like container in the toilet.. what was really nice was they built a toilet indoors in the indoor open space. now you dont have to go outside to this little building, wondering is a huge python is gonna creep up on you if youre going to the loo at night. haha. i did use to wonder that. cos you know there are these stories of pythons swallowing kids and stuff. actually come to think of it, ive never seen a snake in malacca before. but ive seen like snakes in hume ave. funny, huh? thats a line from cockroach opera, the previous play that we did. funny, huh? yes its funny. people dying off hunger and there i was eating sharks fin. always wondered why i didnt like you know, just dont eat sharks fin. but yeah well. big difference itll make. the sharks already dead. theyre gonna continue ordering sharks fin every year even if i dont eat. and so i eat it lorh. funny, huh? the things that happen to all the ideals of youth. my dad says: you are young! youth should have more energy! young people should want to achieve things! yesyes, thats cool and all. but i used to think that i could make a difference, change the world somehow. i mean, there sure are many things wrong as we can see it. but the more i learn, the more i am faced with the inevitability of it all. you learn about how things work, how it all got here. and you realise that hey. how much better could it have been. things are like this for a reason. like now, im like actually quite for pap? i mean, like seriously. i cant believe it either. as in if you ask me do i actually like them, id be like er.... hmmmm... do i really? but at least there is stability. and theres economic growth. yes stability is really important. you can have all these ideals about liberal democracy and all, hell yeah. that is awesome. wed all love something like that.. or at least i think so. but do you actually see any other viable option? do you actually see your neighbour being interested enough to participate in democratic activities on a day-to-day basis? do i even see myself doing that on a day-to-day basis. i dont think so. moi, its just simpler to you know, not do anything. do something only when an issue affects me greatly. yeah. thats me. so much for citizen participation.
and so we exchange our ideals and hopes for something more... practical? not necessarily better but not really worse either. it just.. gets us by? i suppose this is what it means to really scrap the all or nothing thing.
anyways. need to detox. feel damn gross. poor organs.
2:00 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.
