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Friday, July 31, 2009
COOLCOOL. being the youtube whore that i sometimes am =)
5:09 am
aimee mann coming to singaporeland. wa, cool stuff. unfortunately i wouldnt spend money on tix though. dresden dolls or world inferno YESYESYES.
anywaysies. i realised that i dont wanna die any more. well, not really. you know, the internet is like full of all these pseudo-inspirational stuff for i guess people who need help (?) and stuff. usually i just roll my eyes and laugh at it to make myself feel better. (i mean seriously right, if you need some internet scribbles to help pull yourself through the next day, that pretty much sucks doesnt it.) but somewhere i read recently said i dunno, that that person wrote out a list of things he/she wanted to do before doing the grand old deed but the things just took up longer and longer time that the idea doesnt seem relevent any longer.
so yeah well, against my better/worse judgement and went a-writing. by golly, i only wanted a list of ten but now i have i dunno how many things that i really wanna do. yeah. lifes gonna be so much fun. from the looks of things, im gonna need a few years. so i guess alls good for now. anyways can you believe it, one of the things is to do damn fucking well in school. im tired of being mediocre. tired of just scraping through. and especially scared of the number of Fs that i seem to have accumulated this past sem. yup. gotta hit the books soon. and other things, of course. hahaha am not gonna list it all here though, lest i offend the delicate senses of other people.
here and now, here i come.
4:00 am
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
korea
there is something sublime about flying high above the clouds, listening to cool stuff and the babble of excited talk in the background, and knowing that youre on your way home. yeah well, as homey as singapore-land and a sparse rented room can get. to tell the truth, i was even pretty psyched to see my mum and sis waiting for me at the airport. which was.. kinda weird.
anyways. the ten days in korea were pretty awesome. got to meet alot of new people, make new friends, etc etc. and i think i need to get out more. i havent had so much human contact in like.. how long. yeah. my sisters think im pretty weird: i quite enjoy watching movies alone, watching people alone, hanging out alone, etc. and so the last few days of the trip were quite a stretch, really. *what am i doing with such a huge bunch of people!* but anyways, like the psuedo-inspirational post this is turning out to be, i had an awesome time and i guess hanging out with other people can be pretty much fun as well. yup. i might even start going for nusso practices on a semi-regular basis. awshum.
anywaysies, here goes a brief summary of the trip: weird and wonderful food, blood sausage, takochi, ginseng chicken, lots of bibimbap, lots of not-so-wonderful food on the tour intinary (how the hell do you spell that anyways?), missing the last train back, uber-nice strangers, bitchy shop-keepers, rad graffity under the bridge, trying to catch harry potter but missing it, street after street of shopping, the oh-doesnt-this-look-familiar palaces, the thrill of being in the dmz, wishing we're able to be in north korea, hanging out and wandering the streets late at night, playing random fair-games, finding out that clubs in korea arent exactly one would expect in singapore, taking damn alot of section photos, walking the quaint streets of insadong, always making the two really nice friends-on-exchange wait here and there for us, learning the words for no pork,scratching our heads over the a-little-too-indirect marketing techniques over there, koping free packets of face masks and facial cotton, finding face shop and etude house practically everywhere, losing the tour guide far ahead of us, doing the lien pose, getting to know people i dont remember meeting one sem ago even though i feel like i must have, and so on.
as they say, pictures tell a thousand words. but i uhh, havent uploaded any yet. soon?
12:56 pm
Saturday, July 11, 2009
oh dear. im getting rather worried. after getting over the whole OMG IM NOT GOING TO GET TO PLAY, ive realised that shit im gonna spend five days with people i barely know. we're gonna like have to move in groups and all. oh god, i was never made to be a social creature. i kinda enjoy camps and stuff... but its kinda like a test of my human-interaction-endurance? im starting to feel slightly freaked.
1:10 am
Friday, July 10, 2009
i guess sometimes it takes reminding that "supporting a cause" is more than reading articles, nodding emphatically in agreement, engaging in the random conversation about said topic, then going on with one's life. institutionalised distrust is needed to protect the spirit of democracy but there is a difference between institutionalised distrust and paternalistic government. i was reading cavalierio and am now feeling considerably chastened. =( we say, no correction. I SAY, i will support the opposition and vote for them, but in the same breath say that its a lost cause. that is bad. BAD, GAIL, BAD. yes indeed,
INTERRUPTED FOR SOME BAD NEWS. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz.
oh god, this is so bad. just got a call from a nusso person saying that *gasp* the world choir thingthing that we are participating in is being cancelled. omfg. i know. like wth, gail. you said a few days ago that it felt frivolous to be playing such stuff again. i knowwwwww.... *whinewhinewhine* but hor, the more you play it, the less and less frivolous it gets. and, i dunno. i was really excited to be playing this stuff at the last rehearsal. you know, last reheaersal and all. not that i dont still miss notes and theres this whole section that i know i totally still cannot play and etc etc etc. but yeah. anyways, id like to say, the people in charge here are nusso are a real hardworking and on-the-ball bunch of people who are like scrambling best as they can to find accommodations as i type. while i uhh, sit here blogging and reading their msn conversation. THANKS ALOT GUYS. im sure well come up with something heh. but im still miffed that i dont get to play. darn.
11:07 pm
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
okay omg. like, omg. for those of you who have seen me fairly recently (aka in the past two months), you might have noticed that i got a hair extension on my right? the weird thing is, ive been sitting here in front of the com at home (yes im back again tonight) and *drumroll* it got cut off. like, wth? suddenly i saw this bunch of hair on the table and wtf, theres my hair extension! granted, ive been thinking for a super long time that it looks really weird, and totally not like real hair, let alone my hair. but when i modify a part of my body, i kinda expect it to stay modified? like my tongue hole. hell please dont close on me again? pretty please? and it kinda does beg the question: WHODUNNIT? it wasnt my sis cos i woke her up and she was really pissed i woke her up for such a thing. my dad? ??? i subconsciously cut it off? or... someone/thing else? *gasp*
anyways, check this out. really really rad. 0.49++ 1.16++ the whole backward sequence omggg. 1.33++ i am now officially a fan of sonia tayeh. woots. her other work is pretty cool too. just like how i found mia michaels powder puff dress dance so awshum. AWESOME. hmm. could it be that im becoming a nerdfighter? increase awesomeness and decrease worldsuck! huzzah! anyways. the only drawback on watching bite sized sytycd episodes is that cos its a dance competition the need to be uhh, virtuosic, for the lack of a better word, dominates the choreography too much? although who am i to say huh.
HENNYWAYS. heres a rather insightful snapshot of society of which some parts i really feel for. firstly, the ease at which people can obtain permanent residency here. according to a malaysian friend, you can obtain your pr by going for courses/getting certification from some organisation. its some governmental organisation i cant remember what for the life of me. as a friend, i say, if getting this pr thing helps you out (all the perks and all) then by all means, AWESOME, im glad for you. its not my money to spend anyways. well not yet. not quite a tax payer yet. although if i try incite some kinda nationalistic fervour from deep within, its rather worrying, isnt it? just what does belonging to singapore mean, if it can be that easy to like be a member of this country/state. i mean like, a six month course? really? then what really determines whether you can become a singaporean pr is whether you have the time and money to attend/go through these things? =/ (NOT VERIFIED: HOW EASY IS IT REALLY TO BECOME A SG PR?)
and number two. from the comments, the minimum wage. or the conspicuous lack of it. and how this affects the working conditions of the working class. without minimum wage, it will always be more attractive to hire foreigners, who have the benefit of exchange rates. for many its a earn money and go home kinda thing. well, at least for one of my colleagues here where i work. there is absolutely no pressure to improve working conditions because positions like front-line service staff and (im assuming) factory workers, there is a significant turnover rate. so long as there are people hungry enough to forego a chance of developing their species being, companies are not going to see the need to move employee benefits up on the priority list. and those who are caught out are the singaporeans who have to continue living long-term with the high costs over here. and for those who do not have the benefit of education and have to work in these jobs, things like retraining and stuff are just out of the question cos of the need to work shifts. ah well.
TROIS. the call for change here within singaporean politics. personally, im quite skeptical of the idea that a political tsunami a la malaysia will happen anytime soon. that being said, if given the chance i will definitely definitely vote opposition. going by the belief that no big changes are going to be seen anytime soon, if people in my constituency somehow decide to vote opposition as well (if we even get the chance huh), there are still like how many seats in parliament la can. i think previously 48? but what with all the changes and all i dont really know where the count lies any longer. ANYWAYS. i just enjoy rooting for the underdog hahaha. so much for "majoring" in political science. (psst! apparently, most people cant give good reasons policywise why theyre voting a certain way either?) so please please dont call for election so soon okay? lemme turn 21 first! =)
anywaysies, a major life change is coming up soon, what with the quitting of abovementioned job with less-than-desirable pay when schools starts. and so i guess its back to the society that ive grown up in. going for trips, the privilege of higher education, splurging splurging splurging (relatively la) and so on. although i am really quite looking forward to it? going to korea, playing the bass. but it feels kinda strange now actually, the whole making music thing, not taking into account the fact that i havent done this in half a year. but it just feels a little.. frivolous? ah wells. ANYWAYS. in order to like, not get to lost in this frivolous other world, im gonna go backpacking the next hols huzzah! no details down yet so.. anyones free to jump in. kinda thinking of going vietnam during the one-week hols to get the feel of backpacking then doing the rest of SEA during the month-long one at the end of the year. well maybe not malaysia though. ive kinda seen enough of it in my lifetime.
yup. i guess these six months at four leaves have been a wonderful enriching enlightening experience. ive learnt alot, well not really what youd call 'useful' in the future, like how to manage a store, or how to bake and stuff. but its been really eye-opening to just see the different lifestyles there are out there. i just feel like ive been too protected and too lucky and too everything else. and im truly grateful for how accepting theyve all been. i can only imagine if i were them, i might actually begrudge someone whos had it so much easier? and so these past days have been (and will continue to be?) bittersweet. yeahh.. the other person whos quitting, ill see her at work for the last time on thurs. darn. so well. thanks you guys, even if youre probably not gonna read this. the only reason i wish i werent going to korea is because then id have more time to spend with you guys before school reopens. and i know continuing here and schooling at the same time just isnt possible. i know what with the nature of life, its gonna be a challenge to stay together and all. so just... thanks.
for all the suppers and growing fat togethers, mutual grumblings at the supervisors bad moods, da zhang periods, getting the most out of the least effort, walking home with ah ma, trying to plan off-days together so we can go out together, the bunches of laughs, the i dunno.. everything. i dunno. i think the sum of is simply greater than all the parts. maybe because the change of lifestyle/the way i do everything changed when i started work here? cos i really dont know why im getting so damn emotional over this bunch of awesome people. i know it doesnt sound like much. yeah i just had a job that had sucky pay. that took up too much time. it was more than that somehow. its been my life for the past six months, more than school, more than friends, more than family. i dont know how to say goodbye. just.. THANK YOU. big hug to you all.
3:32 am
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.