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Thursday, October 22, 2009
to becky (hope i got her name right! not that shell ever know?):
whose drawing made me feel the same way as when i first watched the choirboys. the first time i heard the arensky piano trio. the first time i heard some anonymous (to me) piece played by some band from a jc in the east, cant remember which one ahaha. first time i read janine, 1982. one of the magic moments when youre playing with other people and suddenly forget that youre actually playing. another anonymous piece at a playing class. i think several other movies that for the time being i cant remember. the ending of the oliver twist that came out several years ago? the bleeding love choreography from SYTYCD. beautiful until you cry. and you want it to last forever, even though it may only be a couple of minutes long.
and so becky, thank you for the experience.
actually, thank you all, anonymous people, for the experience. the small acts of kindness. the respect of personal space, mutual understanding that we all have our reasons for being there. the feeling of solidarity that comes from knowing that each of us are facing our private fears. the understanding that we are the ones who somehow fell out of the loop? we watched each other, sure. but what else was there to do, stuck in that place. we took our turns staring into space, drawing blood, waiting for mealtimes overeagerly cos theres really no bloody else to do, waiting to get out but yet fearful of what the outside holds, took our turns hiding under the covers, took our turns wishing it all away. yes, id say its a very humbling experience indeed. and yes, for a moment i wished i stayed there longer. so once again, thanks for the experience that im guessing i wont be having again anywhere else.
damn i wish i could give each of them a hug. yeah, even the uncle who somehow keeps scratching his butt. ahahahahaha.
1:29 am
Sunday, October 18, 2009
because the d-word is necessarily self-absorbed.
5:16 pm
Friday, October 09, 2009
ward 12 is a humbling place.
although not without the distractions that a certain cute doctor provides. hahaha.
6:04 pm
Friday, October 02, 2009
heys.. i know you want/need to talk about all the stuff thats been happening. really sorry i couldnt talk and wasnt more supportive. went for cou-----ing today which made me freaking tired. i guess/hope you know what i mean?
hope you see this before i see you tomorrow. hang in there and love you loads. =)
2:07 am
Thursday, October 01, 2009
will singapore have a green party in the near future?
8:03 pm
gail.
loves anything new
gets caught up in causes, events, loves
but doesn't do anything about them.
professes to be a supporter of the green movement
but leaves the lights on
disapproves of mcdonalds
but eats there anyways.
godwise, the jury's still out.
schoolwise, fass rocks my socks
but why do i have like a ton of work to do?
familywise, i guess theyre/its great
we just need to figure out what to do around each other?
freindswise, hey you guys are awesome.
blogwise, realises that the profile section is crappy
but doesn't know how else to fill up the space.